Cause if I wanted to go I would have gone by now,
But I really need you near me to
Keep my mind off the edge
If I wanted to leave I would have left by now
But you're the only one that knows me
Better than I know myself
Better than I know myself - Adam Lambert
Time. Patience. Love. That is what I have had with me while I have dealt with my fight with self-love.
Self-love is a hard thing to do. We often want to be perfect that we ruin it before we can. Overthinking. Fantasizing. Imagining. Worrying. Doubting. We just gotta let it happen. Tom has been great with me through the whole time. He is the reason for me wanting to get better. If I'm no good for myself, how can I be good for him?
I like to believe he is my savior. But he didn't make me love myself I did. But real love doesn't meet you at your best, but when you're a mess. He made me love myself.
I was lying in bed reading a book when Tom came back from practice.
"Hey, baby girl." He greeted me while taking off his sweaty shirt.
I smirked at him before he threw it at me. I pouted when the sweat touched me.
"Aww, baby, you're a little sweaty." He told me hovering over me.
"I hate you," pouting up at the man that I loved.
"I love you." He kissed my nose and forehead.
I smiled at his words.
"That's the beautiful smile, I love."
"I love you more, Brady."
He got off of me and laid next to me, pulling me into him.
"How was your day, love?"
" Training camp was alright. I just can't wait until the season starts and the first four games are over."
"I'm sorry, baby."
"It was my fault. Anyway, how was your day Kayla?"
"Good. I missed you a lot, though."
"I always miss you." He kissed me softly for a while. "How are you doing?"
I sighed. He's always so worried about me.
"I'm okay. I'm going to be okay. As long as I got you by my side."
"You always will. Forever."
Forever.
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