Traitor (Renji Yomo x Reader) [Continued in a second book!]

Our Past

Is that really a picture of me.. And him?

"Uh.. I probably have some explaining to do" Renji said.

My mouth probably slightly opened from shock, disbelief and so much confusion.

Tears welled up in my eyes too.

"How.. I mean.. I don't remember.." I just kept shaking my head and covered my mouth, not knowing what else to say.

He gulped hard - signaling to me that he might be hurting.

I no longer wanted to stand so I sat down on the bed - he did the same and sat down right beside me, still holding the picture.

Not 100% wanting to believe that this was true, I took the frame from him and literally scanned the picture for photoshop mistakes - but there were none. This just had to be legit.

"Look.. uh.. This photo shows us.. As you can see. - I actually didn't want to show this to you, until you'd remember.. But now I kind of have to", he took a deep breath, "long story short. We had been.. dating.. for over a year before you disappeared a couple of years ago"

A deep frown formed on my forehead as I looked at him, waiting for him to go on.

Even after seeing the photo, I just didn't remember.

"You were about.. 20, I was 22. So it's been 4 years already. We met at night.. I was looking for food.. But obviously I couldn't harm you. We started.. Dating.. Soon after. You were my anchor, someone that held me down when I was about to go crazy. Back then you were really.. Destroyed, sad, depressed. To be honest I think you wanted to die. You never told me why.. We never spoke about your past. It was hard to meet up with you too, because you were a really busy woman, working as much as you could. Some nights you came running to me while you were crying, yet you never told me what was wrong. I assume you hated your job. I promised to protect you from as much harm as possible.. - After about 3 months things started to change. You were happier, you had more time 'cause you were no longer working, you told me you'd be able to study soon. It was as if your life.. Started over. - Of course I was happy for you. We moved in together. Back then I had an apartment with a lot more space than this little container. Things were going just as planned. Our love just kept growing. But.." he explained.

"I can't believe I don't remember this.." I whispered as I closed my eyes tightly.

It all makes sense now..

He put on of his hands on my back and rubbed it slowly.

"But.. after about a year and 2 months of.. Dating.. You disappeared. You never came home from your day at Kamii. Of course I was worried sick, hoping you'd be okay, but you never returned. I called your university. They said you didn't exist, that they didn't have a student with your name. At first I thought they were lying to me, so I visited Kamii multiple times, hoping to find you. Hell, I searched everywhere for you. But I never found you. I eventually began to believe that you had been betraying me. Telling me things I wanted to hear, not being honest with me - perhaps even cheating on me. So after some time passed, I.. burned all your clothes. I thought you had left me forever, that you had played with my heart. I was angry, frustrated.. Just so tired of everything.. Anyway. I had no idea where you went - I just didn't know.." he added.