Traitor (Renji Yomo x Reader) [Continued in a second book!]

Insecurity

I found myself in front of a container, the door unlocked, waiting for me to step inside. Peeking inside, I realized that it was not very inviting. Very dull and very messy.

Where am I? What is this place?

Darkness was surrounding me, closing in on me and forcing me to make a quick decision.

I have to enter.. Otherwise I'll die.

The second I stepped a foot into the place, my heart began to race. A feeling of discomfort and pain spread through my body. For some reason, I started feeling an overwhelming sadness. Tears started trailing down my cheek for no apparent reason. The weight on my shoulders felt incredible, like it was too much to take.

Why am I feeling this way.. What's going on?

Unsure of what to do, I proceeded, taking further steps inside until I could make out some actual details. The light of candles that was surrounding me by now, revealed an ugly, worn out apartment. Clothes were thrown around, laying on all visible objects, food was rotting on the table, the TV was playing some old school cartoons and the floor was covered in a thick layer of dirt and dust.

Wait.. What's that?

Wondering what caught my eye, I leaned closer to the floor.

Footprints..? In the.. Dirt? Ew.

Before I could further investigate, I ended up sneezing a couple times, the dust getting stuck inside my nose, making me feel sick. That's when I suddenly heard snickering from two different voices. One of them was clearly Renji, which confused me - but that other voice was none that I had ever heard before.

"It was probably just the wind, don't worry babe" Renji said, making me freeze in place.

The snickering was replaced by some moaning only a few seconds later. And it clearly included Renji's voice.

Hearing him moan already broke my heart because it was not me who caused this. Pain was accompanied by curiosity, though. I somehow really wanted to know what was going on - I needed to know what was going on.

But as I approached what seemed to be a bedroom - our bedroom -, my heart felt like it was about to burst. The moans got louder, Renji and whoever was with him were both panting heavily, breathing loudly. It felt so real, so painful.

"Mmh~ deeeeper"

"Urgh, you feel so good"

"Y-yes..! T-that's.. Ngh.. The spot! Harder, haarder~!"

I didn't even need to peek inside, I already knew what was going on - and it tore at the seams of my heart.