The blood in my veins froze, my breath hitched. His mere appearance was enough to make my heart race. There was only one difference; I wasn't scared of him although he caused my body to react in a panicky way. I was angry. He destroyed my life, made it a living hell. The guy that claimed to be my savior only to turn me into a helpless creature and his puppet, deserved nothing but the worst pain in existence. Last time I saw him, Renji and I were held hostage at the CCG headquarters. Kanou always played with my sanity, tried to create a mannequin that smiles at everyone, lives to please others. But that's not who I am. That's who I was forced to be.
"Indeed, it's been a while" I replied with spite, my brows furrowing in a deep frown as I turned around to face him, "Father."
"I'm glad to hear you finally accept me as your father, dear" he chuckled, grinning at me.
Looking at his frame, I saw that he was wielding a quinque in his left hand. Judging by how clean his clothes were but how torn the quinque was, it definitely wasn't his - he stole it from someone.. Or just took it from a lifeless corpse. The grin on his face disgusted me, he was amused by Renji's pain. Perhaps by all the pain surrounding him, too.
"You're a pathetic excuse of a father" I grumbled, glancing back at Renji for a split second before turning my attention back to Kanou.
Something within me told me Renji could do it, he'd pull through. I knew I had to defend us from Kanou. He definitely wasn't here for a nice chit chat - he was here to cause damage. It was most likely that he wanted to take me back to the Aogiri Tree with him. But I couldn't let him. Not when I knew that Renji needed me and.. Ryuu's ceremonies weren't over. I wasn't done with my family, didn't close the chapter, yet. And what really drove me were my feelings for Renji. Denying them, fighting them was useless. He was and will always be the one. Renji could probably eat me alive and in my last waking moment, I'd tell him how much I love him. Being in love meant being trapped. Trapped in my own mind. Renji was - aside from Ryuu - the first thought on my mind my mornings and the last one before I went to bed. Throughout the days, I worried about him or spend time with him. He was my drug, again.. And that was very, very unhealthy. But at least right now, while we were still grieving over the loss of Ryuu, I didn't want to complain, didn't want to solve this by distancing myself. Not yet. Although starting over with him sounded amazing, I knew it wouldn't help me. It'd only turn me more and more dependent.. Yet I wanted to be independent.
"Ohh, fierce as ever, it seems" Kanou smirked, stepping closer to me.
"Don't you dare come closer" I threatened him, getting up on my legs, shielding Renji with my own body.
"What're you going to do? Weep, scream into my ear? Beg me to spare your life?" he teased me, still coming closer.
"Get the fuck away!" I yelled, in that moment some kind of wind passed my body, pushing Kanou back a few meters.
In reply, he raised his eyebrows. I balled my hands up into fists, preparing to fight with all my might. For Renji. For the future, we'd never have.
"I see, your powers are finally beginning to reach their peak. That sure took some time" he took notes, scanning my body like a piece of meat up for display.
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Traitor (Renji Yomo x Reader) [Continued in a second book!]
Fanfiction"The past is the past and I am letting it kill me." Betrayed and forgotten. Lonely. No forgiveness. No trust. The past defines who you are - there's no option of going back and fixing it. It will get in your way. It will hold you back. It will destr...