Traitor (Renji Yomo x Reader) [Continued in a second book!]

Still Alive But Barely Breathing

!! TW: depression, anxiety, loss, blood/little gore, death, grieving, denial, suicidal thoughts, assault !! This chapter contains heavy themes, please read with caution.

The past weeks, your life took a turn for the worse. She did it. Itori released tapes to the public. Right after your breakup, too. As if you hadn't already been fighting with your inner demons after losing your long-term boyfriend to his ex. As if that wouldn't make everything worse. You only found out because a stranger knocked on your door and immediately began flirting with you, constantly complimenting your great bending abilities, greatly throwing you off with every word he said. No matter how many times you denied him entrance, he refused to accept it and eventually pushed himself inside violently. Within a few seconds, you had thrown him back out, used your powers to break his arms. Luckily, you didn't get in trouble. The guy never dared to tell Kaneki. Aside from that, you didn't get hurt either but your stress level rose tremendously from that encounter on. Ever since then, you had to deal with daily harassment. People knocked on your door, asked for your service and how much they'd have to pay, others didn't even consider payment and some were just walking by and wondering if you were the girl from the video.

Needlessly to say, you expected someone to care - especially Renji - but no one reached out to you. That your long-term boyfriend, the one supporting you through your healing, for the most part, didn't even come to check on you, much less stopped Itori after getting back together with her, tore on the seams of your heart. Unlike Renji, Kaneki and Touka knew about what happened, didn't know how to deal with it, though. Renji, on the other hand, had no idea. While you expected Itori to have fulfilled her promise of ruining your life and sending the videos around, she only gave the okay to her partner in crime. He was the one sending them around, offering it to people. So, all Itori did was stay at home after quickly shooting a message to her partner. Renji couldn't have noticed, didn't receive them either.

He was actually worried about you, a bit irritated about how you didn't show up to see Tetsuo in so long even after he told you that the little boy was missing you. Besides that, he knew you loved him. However, so far, Itori always held him back from seeing you. She always found sneaky ways to make him feel guilty for caring about his ex, you. Their relationship wasn't healthy, Itori was definitely the one in charge and highly manipulative. Renji hadn't really taken note of that yet; her acting was quite convincing. For now, he was still wearing rosy glasses, believing in her good side. He sincerely missed you, though. Breaking up wasn't easy for him, his heart was still aching for you. He merely tried to fill the void with Itori's love. Unfortunately, that was more physical than anything. The two didn't really have an emotional connection, it was only their bodies. Unlike you and him, you connected on every level.

Tetsuo, on the other hand, really enjoyed spending time with both his parents but sometimes wondered where you were. Although he was very young, he understood something happened. He would've loved to see you.

But now that being vocally harassed became a normality, you didn't exit your place nearly as often as you used to. It scared you. Getting out of bed was already a big struggle but now you actively had to plan when you could potentially grab food or go to the bathroom. Leaving at night terrified you, even more; it was when you sensed lots of traffic around your place. Whether you just hadn't noticed it before or they were looking out for you, you didn't know. Your home didn't feel safe anymore. Your only option was leaving during the day in hopes to be left alone.