Traitor (Renji Yomo x Reader) [Continued in a second book!]

His Cure

Another hour passed by before I managed to calm down and collect my emotions.

After thoroughly thinking about everything, I felt selfish, childish and bad about what happened.

Renji didn't deserve this.

He was such a kind-hearted person that probably just wanted to help me.. But all I saw was someone that might hurt me - even though I trusted him a lot more than anyone else, it was still not enough to stop my fears entirely.

Part of me wanted him to understand, part of me wanted to change myself.

One thing was for sure, if I wouldn't change something about myself, we'd be running in circles for a while. Him understanding me wouldn't change the fact that I felt self conscious about myself, it would only support me on my way to loving and accepting myself.

I knew I'd have to take the 'risk' of trusting him completely, without doing so our relationship would be doomed to fail.

So after gathering my thoughts and feelings along with my emotions, I decided to put on the clothes Renji got for me. They were really pretty in my eyes but not suiting my current body at all, but because I didn't want any more discussions or other bad situations, I put them on without further hesitation.

After all, christmas was right around the corner and I just wanted to spend some peaceful time with him. It was something we both probably really needed and longed for.

Before my body would grow even weaker again, I prepared to leave the bathroom.

I need to make up to him..

I'm the one making mistakes.. Putting his life in danger.. So why am I like this?

Slowly turning the doorknob, I prepared for the worst.

"Renji. I'm sorry.. I don't know what got to me.. I know you were ju-" I started to say but then realized that he wasn't here.

Glancing around the room, I saw nothing suspicious nor any traces of Renji.

Oh.. Well maybe he's walking around the house..

Taking a deep breath I tried to calm down a bit more.

Guess I'll take that opportunity to check out the house..

Walking over to another door located at the opposite side of the bed, I slowly opened it.

Ahead of me was a rather long hallway, lots of doors on each side and a staircase leading down.

It was looking old and the floor was full of dust but it still had a nice charm to it.

Wow.. it must've been quite a while since someone's last been here..

Considering that we'll stay here for some time I might as well clean it up later.

Picture frames were scattered all around the place, some probably fell from the wall and were lying on the ground. Some were displaying old looking, well dressed people, others were paintings - and all of them were full of dust.

Those people are probably part of Renji's family.. Maybe those are his grandparents even?

After all.. He said this house belonged to them..

I might just ask him later..

One frame in particular managed to catch my attention, it displayed a rather young female holding a tiny baby and a male was standing behind her, wrapping his arms around both the child and the female.