Traitor (Renji Yomo x Reader) [Continued in a second book!]

Strong Men

On our entire way home we both stayed silent. He trailed behind me while I took the lead, stomping but rushing home. I was fed up, burning inside, waiting to be able to confront him about this. Hearing how no one - except for Renji - would be willing to support me was no news to me. Hearing that I was, in fact, a danger to everyone was very frustrating, though. It was not what I wanted to be. I didn't want to put everyone in dangerous situations just by being near them - but what they said was right. Currently, my life was set out to be a never ending chase. There was no win-win situation where we'd all live happily ever after: I could either spent my entire life running from them until I'd die or I could hand myself into one of them to avoid more violence - especially done towards others, innocent ones. If this was truly all about me, then I had to be the one to solve this somehow. And let's not mention the Itori thing thrown around by Touka. If it was true that he cheated, it'd be over in a second. There was no way I'd let that slip, no matter how much I love him. If it was at some other point, I'd have to take some time to rethink.

Once we were finally at his container, I unlocked the door and threw the door open, not caring about the sound of metal crashing against metal with such force it might've left a dent.

Taking a deep breath, my shoulders visibly moving up and down, I tried calming myself down so I'd be able to speak clearly - but all those thoughts of being kind and calm were thrown right out the window as I heard him enter and sigh.

"What the fuck was that all about?!" I began, raising my voice quite quickly as I turned around to face him.

He was just closing the door, his back facing me, not even daring to look at me and just casually continuing what he was doing. For now, I decided to let it slip.

"'A normal meeting'" I mimicked him, "'It'll be okay'."

Renji started taking off his jacket, still not looking at me.

"Bullshit, nothing's okay! In fact, what the hell is going on?! Did I really just attend a meeting where I get bashed for something that was not in my hands to begin with?! Do those idiots really think I chose the way my life went?!" I blurted out, letting all my anger run free.

Yet, he still didn't have the urge to look at me and just calmly took off his clothes before he went off to the kitchen row.

"Excuse me, could you please have the decency to look at me when I'm talking to you?!" I confronted him, walking right beside him and crossing my arms in front of my chest.

"I didn't think they'd be so negative about this" he replied, glancing over at me but not fully making eye contact.

"Fuck that! It was obvious they'd be against me. It doesn't even surprise me anymore. - But you know what surprised me?! Hearing that you might've been cheating on me with your friend! So, what about that fucking Itori crap?! What went on with her, huh?!" I demanded to know, frowning deeply.

He stopped his movements and leaned against the counter, his arms holding his weight as he clenched his jaw.

"Did you have sex with her!?"