Traitor (Renji Yomo x Reader) [Continued in a second book!]

Hope

(Renji's POV:)

The second they revealed that she was related to Arima, I felt betrayed. She knew how much I hated him. She knew what he did to my family, to me. She was the one that held me back when I wanted nothing more than to kill him. Now it all made sense. Now I knew why she'd do that: it was her beloved brother all along. She simply didn't want me to go after her brother. It made me wonder.. if she could keep something so important from me, what else could she possibly be hiding? There had to be more. Even Yoshimura knew, somewhat confronted her in front of everyone and she lied right to our faces, saying that she was not related to a high ranked CCG investigator. I felt like I should've seen through her. Maybe I was blinded by love. Now she seemed like a backstabbing snake. It all made me wonder if she was actually cooperating with her family, Kanou and Arima, in order to hunt Anteiku and other ghoul's down. Because now it was me who was captured by the CCG. It was a risk I was willing to take before.. But not anymore. I loved her with all of my heart, I really did. I still do. Her scent. Her eyes. Her lips. Her personality. Her flaws. Everything about her was perfect in my eyes. She was the one I wanted to spent my life with. Until her biggest secret was revealed. The secret that made it seem like everything was a lie. And I blamed myself for not knowing about it. I should've recognized Arima's smell back when she was pregnant and we met at his place. The way she tried to explain it only upset me further. I was confused and hurt. And she was a liar. Nothing but a liar. A liar that took my heart. Perhaps even a liar that wanted to mislead me, someone I should've avoided when I could. One could say, I questioned everything I knew about her and every moment we spent together.

But no matter how much she hurt me, I didn't want to leave her alone in this state. I knew she was hurt because of me but I couldn't find the will to thank her. Part of me was bitter about what she did, doubted her and wanted to leave right away and the other part of me clung onto our memories, our love. What we had was nothing normal but now I felt like she was acting through all of it. But that was something I decided to keep to myself. No matter how much I fought the idea, I couldn't help but imagine her to be some sort of spy. The thought alone broke my heart.

When they took me from her, I fought them. I didn't want to leave her behind, even after she betrayed me. However, as soon as I was alone, I began planning my escape instead of pitying myself. There was no way I was going to stay here and cooperate. I wouldn't let them win. I had to get out of this. For myself and for my niece and nephew. Anteiku was in danger, I had to warm them.

Before I even managed to flesh out my plan, they knocked me out by using gas that slowly filled my cell. Once I was awake they took a blood sample from me. I found myself attached to a weird device, unable to move. My wrists were tied to some sort of metal plate and a huge steel belt was wrapped around my hips, pressing me against some more metal. Only a few seconds later various poisonous substances were forced into my body by a catheter on each of my hands. Something else was stabbed into my back. My entire body hurt and I felt like my life was being sucked out of me. I couldn't move, I could barely keep myself awake. The object attached to my back was tearing at my skin with rapid speed. With each passing day. I felt the light leave my eyes. I only woke up when I was supposed to, when they made me wake by injecting some other substance. The power I ought to have was gone. They took my life from me and I could do absolutely nothing about it. I didn't even know what they were doing. There was no way I could escape.

(Your POV:)