Traitor (Renji Yomo x Reader) [Continued in a second book!]

27 Weeks

We spent the next couple of hours in each others embrace, talking about trivial, positive things in order to get used to another again.

Needlessly to say, we both enjoyed it. Sure, I still had doubts but I decided to give this a go, to basically give him a chance to be back in my life. After all, I had nothing to lose anyway and I could really use some support through this pregnancy.

Before he left he suggested exchanging phone numbers so that I could reach him whenever something was wrong and of course, I agreed to it.

It seemed like a good idea to me, to have someone I can call whenever I need to that is not associated with the CCG like Kishou.

Once I was alone again, I recalled everything that happened, realizing how lucky I was to have met him. I felt like this talk was necessary - but lots of more time would have to pass before I could get close to him again, not because of how I felt about what he did, but mainly because of what happened to me through the past years.

It traumatized me, leaving more scars than last time that would need a lot of time to heal.

While I still trusted him in not hurting me the same way others did, I just knew that I'd suffer through flashbacks if I'd get with him now.. And that was something I really didn't need right now. This pregnancy was already taking a big enough toll on me.

A week later and lots of phone calls later, we were already a lot closer to each other than before and I started feeling a little better again, whenever my thoughts got bad, I dialed his number and literally poured my heart out to him. Sometimes I regret oversharing everything but then I realized that he probably knew almost everything about me anyway and that he was the only one that always understood me.

He felt like the high school crush that I had to keep a secret from my parents because otherwise, they'd freak out.. But in this case, it'd be the secret lover that I'd have to keep a secret from Kanou and Kishou so we wouldn't be killed.

As much as I trusted Kishou, I couldn't risk telling him yet. He would probably want to meet Renji.. Resulting in Renji recognizing him as Arima, the one that killed his sister, which would lead to another big crisis I wanted to avoid for as long as possible. All I needed right now was lots of rest and support, not more drama as once again my pregnancy was causing trouble for my body, making it ache in ways I hadn't experienced in a while.

At least I was not bleeding or showing other signals of not eating enough - it was different and probably normal, but still bothering me.

As I sat on Kishous couch, eating something while watching the news, the door behind me was suddenly unlocked. Not expecting anyone besides Kishou, I checked the clock to realize that it was only 2pm - way too early for Kishou to arrive but still, I thought it could be him wanting to surprise me by coming home earlier and spending a day together.

Instinctively, I turned off the TV that was just starting to air something about Kanou, got up and headed over to the kitchen to prepare food for him as I usually did.

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"Heey" I greeted him from the stove as I heard the door close again.

No reply.

Well, maybe he didn't hear me..

"You're early today!" I shouted, a little louder than before.

Still, no reply but I heard footsteps approaching me.

Well.. maybe he just wants to look at me before he speaks.. Or he has a surprise he wants to show me?

Not bothering too much, I kept paying attention to the food on the stove.

Now that I was doing better than before and could actually speak fluently, I started preparing food for Kishou whenever I could - it was my way of thanking him for everything he had done for me. He had to deal with all my problems back when I was completely unresponsive, so I really owed him something.

"Oh, preparing food for me? How kind.. But really unnecessary"

Turning my head towards the door with a smile on my face, I realized it was Kanou greeting me back with a smile while holding a metal suitcase with his hand. My smile faded right away, not having expected him and I turned off the stove right away.

"What are you doing here?"

"Well, that's not how you should treat your father when he visits you."

"You should've called.."

"Did I forget to do that? How unfortunate.. - well, now I'm already here."

"And why are you here?"

Pointing to his suitcase he continued to speak: "It's time for another check up"

Hearing that made me frown but I knew I couldn't get out of it.

"Don't worry, it'll only take 10 minutes"

Hopefully, it's not going to be as bad as last time.. 

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A/N: I apologize for my absence.. but this election was.. uhm. Well, I just had to spend some time thinking about it - even though I'm not American but I do have family over there that I'm currently really worried about for various reasons. But hey, on a bright side only 5/6 (depending on time zone) days until proper wifi and no more worries about that, yay! 

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