Traitor (Renji Yomo x Reader) [Continued in a second book!]

Meet The Family

Over the past two months, we bonded tremendously. We started having longer and also deeper conversations about topics we normally kept to ourselves, knowing it would only do good for our relationship to have more conversations - and it did, we both got to know each other a lot better through that. That one time when my monthly gift, Aunt Flo, returned, shortly after we got back together, I fell into an abyss of pain, cramps, and a terrible mood - but Renji cared for me more than ever, even taking a couple of days off to make sure I was fine. Aunt Flo completely swept me off my feet, attacking me when I was least expecting it and it was an absolute bitch, far worse than before. Due to the sudden blood leaking issue, I sent Renji to get me some pads as, of course, he had none at home. Without any complaining he left to get some right away, returning and handling this situation like a true gentleman. Since it was the first time it happened since I lost my daughter, my cycle was not quite intact yet and lasted for way longer than it should and it was also way more painful than it used to be. Renji knew about that and made sure to pamper me to no end, letting me demand any and everything whenever I wanted to. It went as far as borrowing one of his hands and placing it right below my belly button, on my lower stomach/pelvic area, to ease the pain spreading from there. Warmth or more precisely, body heat was the only thing helping me, so it was always either his or my hand resting on that area. Besides that I also demanded lots and lots of cuddles to which he happily complied. Most of the time he simply held onto me while we were watching TV or cooking together, exchanging sloppy kisses now and then. Leaving his place to go outside was no option at all, I even took a couple days off of work as the pain was almost unbearable. Lastly, he always gave me a good back rub before we went to sleep to make sure I could relax properly.

It really surprised me that it didn't bother him too much that I was bleeding - after all, he was a ghoul.. And a ghouls equivalent to alcohol was fermented blood, I thought it'd bother him somehow. It surely didn't bother an artificial ghoul that was suffering from terribly annoying pain.

Once it was over though, I became a lot more fiery for about a week - and it only happened once: the first time my cycle re-started. I was a total, hormone driven, mess. It was very overwhelming. Sometimes I got these bad urges to actively, purposely tease him: kissing his neck while hugging him from behind, running my hands down his torso to the belt loops of his jeans, wiggling my butt to cause some friction between the front of his pants and my butt whenever he was standing or laying right behind me, etc. That issue thankfully only lasted for a week then I returned to normal, where I no longer had to deal with random outbursts of emotions. At least I never got angry; I only ever started crying over dumb, tiny mistakes or got quite fiery.

While most guys probably would've lost it rather soon, Renji kept his composure, almost ignoring what I was doing when I was teasing him. The only reactions he showed were some simple groans followed by him cursing under his breath and either moving away or turning around (in bed). When I was lucky, he called me a tease or told me to stop teasing him, sounding a little annoyed but letting me know that what I was doing had an effect on him. What really mattered though, was that he didn't take advantage of the situation, knowing I was not actually ready for any kind of intercourse or too much sexual intimacy. The furthest I could go was making out. The emotional traumas I endured over the past years were insane and so far, I found no way to completely shut off my fears and memories. And he understood. He never got mad or acted disappointed. He let me know that I should take all the time I needed to. On another note, the re-appearance of my cycle meant that I was now able to get pregnant again. Now the only things stopping us from working on our plan of having a family were me and my issues. It was in my hands to decide when it'd be the right time to start - but currently, it was not in sight. Not only because I still had to get over the repeated abuse but also because I really wanted to get myself checked by a doctor before going further with Renji. Not just a doctor, a gynecologist. But visiting one wouldn't only be risky as they could easily recognize me but it'd also be a lot for me to handle. As I informed Renji about this he agreed but also added that there was no ghoul-doctor anywhere and most definitely not a doctor like that. Regardless of that, he supported me in my decision and said he'd join me as support if I wanted him to.