Traitor (Renji Yomo x Reader) [Continued in a second book!]

Control

A/N: This chapter includes smut.

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Throughout the entire evening, Renji kept cursing and attempting to fix his broken laptop. He didn't speak a word to me, didn't ask for another explanation. He was still upset, probably boiling from anger. In return, I just sat on our shared bed. Of course, I wouldn't listen to him, would still see Koutarou whenever I wanted to. Right after he dropped that line, demanded I shouldn't see my best friend anymore, I wanted to fight back, wanted to argue. But.. I didn't feel like putting up a fight. Not right now. Not when I was still in shock from what I just witnessed. Not when I still wanted someone's arms around me more than anything. Right now, I really just needed to feel secure, needed someone to help me realize that I wasn't stuck in my past, that I was not at risk of being at the Aogiri Tree again. But Renji didn't seem to be willing to provide that comfort. He didn't care that I occasionally sobbed and sniffed. It didn't seem to bother him that I sometimes started tearing up.

I went to bed before him, hopped into some extra comfortable clothes and held my cute teddy to me. At least that gave off a tiny bit of comfort. By the time he was done raging, I was already half asleep. The only reason I woke up again was him smacking his laptop on his table. He was probably frustrated. Afterward, he left for a shower or something similar. And it absolutely terrified me. Once I realized that I could potentially get attacked again, my heart began to race and I teared up again. Today was simply not my kind of day. Today, I didn't want to be strong. I didn't want to fight my fear and sadness.

Eventually, Renji returned and I could finally calm down again. Something about his smell was comforting. At least comforting enough to erase my fear. While he was still rummaging through his closet, looking for some comfortable sleepwear, I was already dozing off again. Cuddling my teddy actually helped a lot.. Even if it made me feel weak. It was okay. I'd start over tomorrow and everything would be fine.

What caught me off guard a little was that Renji snuck beneath the bedsheets right behind me and slowly wrapped an arm around my body. He snuggled up to me. And that was actually exactly what I needed. His warmth, admittedly, wasn't as comforting as Koutarou's.. But it was still highly appreciated and making me feel quite secure.

I didn't realize that he had any intentions at first.

"Baby.." he whispered into my ear, trying to get some seductive voice on, "I miss you."

"Huh?" I hummed, not following his trail of thoughts, yet, "Didn't sound like it earlier.."

"Well, you broke my laptop.." he fake pouted, nibbling on my earlobe gently, "I needed some time to cool down.."

"Well, I had a reason.." I defended myself with a sleep-drunken voice, "You owe me an apology.."

"Mmh.. You're right.. We've been fighting so much lately.. Shouldn't we have a moment to ourselves?" he suggested, rubbing one of his hands on my legs, specifically my thighs.

At that, my breathing hitched. I didn't like it but didn't hate it either.. I just wasn't quite awake yet. And I honestly didn't expect him to be so blatant. He knew I wanted to take it slow.. But perhaps we were, all the sudden, too slow for him.

"Renji.. I'm tired.." I groaned, shifting so my back would be all against him but it really just made his hand graze over my lady parts, making me gulp in return.

He also froze in place but eventually carefully retracted his hand, placing it back on my hip, drawing hearts into it.

"Let me apologize" he mumbled, suddenly kissing my neck delicately, "Please~"