Traitor (Renji Yomo x Reader) [Continued in a second book!]

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The following hours were absolute torture for you. Always torn between wanting to cry and wanting to prove how strong you were. More blood was drawn from Ryuu, nurses and doctors further examined his eye and all you could do was watch. Watch with your ex beside you.

After refreshing yourself in the restroom, you sent a message you Koutarou telling him to go home, that this would take longer and you'd explain it later. There was no way you'd explain everything with Renji nearby; you didn't want him to see you cry.

And since then, you sat next to him - in silence.

Renji attempted to reach out to you every now and then but you chose to ignore him. Inside, he was hurting just as bad as you. He just heard that his son was potentially dying as well. But instead of sharing the pain and eventually helping each other, you both bared the pain alone.

By now, it was time for the dreaded MRI. In order to perform it, Ryuu had to be tied to the board. Some sort of helmet was put on his head that held it in place and covered his ears. He could barely open his mouth. But he screamed, screamed at the top of his lungs. Ryuu didn't even want his binky.

It broke both of your hearts to see him this way.

While Renji was pretending that it didn't affect him, you were visibly shaken by the sight. Ryuu was undeniably scared, upset about what was happening because he didn't see either of his parents.

It'd take one hour for the entire scan to be done. One hour of him screaming.

But after only 10 minutes, you couldn't take it anymore.

You left.

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"I.. I can't.. I .. I'll.. I'll be right back" I stuttered, feeling tears trailing down my cheek.

Without any warning, I got up and just straight off walked out of the room. I didn't plan on going far, just out of this room so I wouldn't have to hear Ryuu's screams, so I decided to walk. Walking was faster, even though I was stumbling.

I simply couldn't bear my son in pain or fear, it killed me to know he had to go through this.

"W-wait!" Renji called after me, jumping up from the seat he was on.

I heard him follow me, heard his footsteps behind me but I hoped he'd just stop and leave me alone. Right now, I didn't want him anywhere near me either. If anything, I believed he'd just attempt to crush me further.

The second I exited the room, Ryuu's screaming became distant, it was a lot quieter. But I still heard it.. And for the split second that I was alone, I let my guard down and accidentally sobbed loudly. Multiple people turned around to look at me, which made me hide my face with one hand as I walked past them. I hated crying in public - it made me feel weaker than I actually was. And especially now, it just made everything worse.. But it was too hard to keep myself together.