Traitor (Renji Yomo x Reader) [Continued in a second book!]

Glasses

It's been 3 months since you last saw Renji. Three months since you told him to leave you alone. Three months since he last hit you. So much happened. Koutarou and you.. You decided to start dating only a couple of days later.

At first, it was amazing - very exciting for both of you - but it died down quicker than you thought it would. Everything was great, you could never regret your time with him. But. Your relationship simply.. Wasn't meant to be.

It became clear that what you felt for each other wasn't love. At least not the type of love you expected to feel after all this time with Renji. To you, it was weaker, perhaps simply something different. And Koutarou.. Well, he hoped it'd be more. The crush he had on you was intense but it never turned into an actual lovers-love.

You cared for each other, loved each other's near.. But it was more of a very close friendship. Probably a mixture between a friendship and an actual lover. And even though it was very physical, the connection you two had was deeper than a "friends-with-benefits"-relationship.

What you both felt for each other was hard to explain. In a way, you guys were in love with each other.. But it never became more than a friendly love.

It took about 2 months until you gave up trying to love him differently, then you decided to share your thoughts with him. And he agreed. He had the same issue.

From there on out you went back to being friends. Occasional kisses were exchanged, though. And you still cuddled. It was just something you both got used to. But it all happened on a platonic, friendship kind of love.

However, none of you regret trying to date. In the end, it only made your friendship stronger because you knew each and everything about each other. There were no more secrets between Koutarou and you - your trust in each other grew immensely.

Since Ryuu technically didn't have a father anymore, Koutarou took over. He deeply cared for Ryuu.. Because, of course, you cared about him. Though Ryuu was "only" 7 months old, he was actually easily around 10 or 11 months old due to his ghoulism. Ryuu started trying to stand, picking up a random object and became a lot more active when either of you played with him. Sometimes he even climbed up the stairs to visit Koutarou who was training in his room. He started speaking, too and usually called you his mother.. And Koutarou his father. Renji was a complete stranger, even though you attempted to show Ryuu old photos of his actual dad and explained that he was his father. The little man didn't really care - but could you blame him? No.

Ryuu became quite protective of you already. Sometimes he stood in front of you and crossed his arms, babbling something angrily after Koutarou and you just had a normal conversation. When that happened, Koutarou usually made a random move that triggered memories for Ryuu of his dear mother getting hurt. He did remember that. And because his character was developing more and more, and his emotions and feelings became more apparent every day, he attempted to speak up for you.

Of course, it was cute in a way.. But it really meant that Ryuu had been scarred by seeing such a violent act at such a young age.

Despite that, he grew well. Chigyou was monitoring and control his and your health every week. Your son showed good results, only his eyes seemed to get worse - signaling that he might need glasses. But you.. You were still struggling. Especially the week after your last encounter with Renji, you needed lots of coaching from your therapist. Koutarou was a helping you immensely with your recovery but it wasn't enough. Even when you were dating, he couldn't fill your void. He was only a distraction, keeping your mind from him as best as he could.