Traitor (Renji Yomo x Reader) [Continued in a second book!]

Of Fixing and Healing

What was postponed for a while, rejected by Renji, deferred by you, finally happened. After all the trouble, all the pain of the past weeks, you two reunited. Not only did you share a few kisses, you ended up making out. But that wasn't it. Passion clouded your mind, sensual touches ignited your desire and ultimately temptation was too strong to resist - you spent the rest of the day engulfed in each other's embrace, forgetting that days terrible events, worshipping each other's bodies. Perhaps it wasn't exactly a good moment considering how both of you had been fighting and how you were injured but perhaps it was the right point in your relationship to take it a step further.

You both decided to sleep together, have intercourse. Unlike last time, it wasn't about simply doing the deed. Although last time skipped, Renji was keen on foreplay this time around. Thanks to settling for non-penetrative sex up until now, he got to know some new sensitive spots of yours that he hadn't even considered yet. Same goes for you. That way you could spend hours just teasing and working each other up. And that's exactly what you did.

This was about getting closer, healing, proving trust to one another while taking it slow, enjoying the moment.

Both Renji and you were still struggling with past events. He couldn't stop thinking about how Koutarou got to see this sight before him as well, how you cheated. You couldn't stop yourself from remembering what he did during your early pregnancy nor move on from your other experiences. But you loved each other so much, you wanted to push past this once and for all. In order to do that, you took it almost painfully slow. Constant reassuring was necessary along with tons of rather gentle kisses and eye contact to increase the intimacy. Renji insisted on seeing your face, watching your reactions and seeing the pleasure written all over your face. That way, he would notice right away if you were uncomfortable and could stop right away. Not in a million years did he want to mess up by forcing you into this. Aside from that, your slight blush and subtle lip biting along with your eyes slowly closing and a frown forming turned him on endlessly.

Needlessly to say, you felt the same way. Being able to see his expression was calming yet driving you crazy. It gave you the opportunity to see that he was indeed the man you loved and not his other half poking through and of course you enjoyed seeing how good he felt. His grunts and soft moans were your biggest weakness, though.

Hours after making out, you both reached the end of your gentle lovemaking session. Renji a little sooner than you but he wouldn't leave you unsatisfied - he surely took care of you as best as he could. And hell, he knew what he was doing.

It was pure luck that Tetsuo hadn't woken up but you also did your best at being rather quiet. Thankfully, his crib was blocked by a shelf. Even if he had woken up, he wouldn't have been able to see you two - neither could you see him, though.

The rest of the day you two spent holding each other, talking and laughing as if nothing bad had ever happened. For a moment, everything was perfect. You both spoke about the future, your dreams as if nothing could ever get between them. Eventually, Renji dropped how his biggest wish was having a child with you, even shared how much he missed Ryuu. At first, you wanted to joke about how you could get some practice now but once Ryuu was mentioned, you both shed tears instead. Nonetheless, these words meant a lot to you. It was eventually you who could crack a joke and lift the mood again. For the first time in weeks, you two shared a very much needed heartfelt laughter.

And that sums up how the following three weeks went. You were closer, a lot more touchy and comfortable with each other. You both worked hard to improve your communication skills. Renji's new favorite napping position was you laying on your back with him resting his head on your stomach - he loved how you would play with his hair and how soft your body was.