Traitor (Renji Yomo x Reader) [Continued in a second book!]

New Life

"I have to go work now, if you want, you can leave and go for a walk. I'll leave a spare key here for you" Kishou (Arima) told me.

Sitting on my bed, his guest bed, I stared right past the figure in front of me and instead inspected the generic white wall behind him.

His offer was very generous considering that Kanou told him that I couldn't make decisions on my own and that he, therefore, should lock me in his apartment when he was leaving for work.

My (adopted) brother basically became my caregiver. I was a burden to him.

"You heard me?" he asked after I didn't reply.

A sigh left his mouth as he started waving his hand in front of my face.

Unresponsive. That's what they used to describe me.

My condition bettered over the past month. Still, that meant it took 5 months for an artificial ghoul with a high RC factor to show any signs of healing - and that's bad, it even meant I might not be able to recover fully, my brain might be damaged permanently.

The only reason it got better was because I had no stress, no physical treatments and a lot of food. Kanou always made sure to give me the lowest amount of food I could possibly need, it was enough to survive and stay sane but it was not enough to speed up my healing process.

So all the wounds, all the scars, the entire damage that's been done started to heal ever since I started staying with Kishou 2 months ago.

"(Y/N), I really have to go. Did you hear me, will you be okay?" he tried to make me speak once again.

Speaking became a thing again but it was rare and usually only one word.

Sentences were still too hard for me.

But why was that? I didn't know. It didn't feel like I ever forgot how to speak, my lips just didn't want to let words pass through.

So, nowadays I usually communicated by making noises.

Kishou started snapping his finger in front of my eyes multiple times.

That was when I finally realized he was speaking to me and I glanced right into his eyes.

"I'll be gone. Take a walk outside if you want - I'm sure the baby could use some fresh air"

Baby.. fresh air..

Right now, I was 3 months and 2 weeks pregnant. 14 weeks in total.

My stomach was still flat as ever, you could barely see a bump and it was still very easy to hide. I preferred hiding.

The only reason they ever found out that I was pregnant was because I had to throw up quite frequently, which seemed suspicious to them so they put me through a basic examination. Recalling everything that happened in the first month, it's a surprise that I didn't lose the kid.

Deep inside it still hadn't entirely sunk in that I was expecting a child, it felt surreal and my mental state prevented it from processing.

"The keys are right here" he added as he pointed to a bunch of keys lying on the nightstand.

To let him know that I understood, I nodded softly.

"Take your phone with you and call me if something's wrong"

Phone..

My eyes moved over to the phone laying on the bed, next to my hand.

Kishou bought it for me right after he took me in and made sure he was on speed-dial.

"Okay, I'll see you later" he said as he ruffled through my hair before he headed to the front door.

Being bothered by my messed up hair, I moved my hands up to fix it.

Going outside.. Doesn't sound so bad.

After about 30 more minutes I finally decided that I would, in fact, go outside.

So I slowly started collecting my clothes and got ready.

At least I was not completely helpless anymore and could do some things on my own.

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Flinging a bag containing my phone and my purse over my shoulder, I left the apartment and locked the door.

Within another few minutes, I arrived at the entrance and exited the building.

People began staring at me the second I started walking as if I was an alien.

Perhaps I just looked really messy - but I didn't care.

It didn't really bother me, I just noticed it.

But it reminded me that Kishou told me to be careful of my former colleagues and university students as they now knew about me and my ghoul being.. And would want to kill me.

Even though I looked very different from what I used to look like, they could still recognize me if they tried hard enough or analyzed my face properly.

My hair was longer and the color started changing, for some reason I had a few gray and some white streaks. My eyes were no longer showing any sort of emotion, they were especially dull. My skin became paler and I had gained a bit weight due to the pregnancy.

I was just.. Not 'me' anymore.

Where.. To go..

Not knowing where to go, I just chose a random direction and started walking.

The route I took seemed to be very boring at first but then I ran into a plant, making me stumble and almost fall. As I fixed my clothes a little I realized what store I was standing in front of.

Anteiku.... Renji..

For a few minutes, I just stood in front of it, thinking, reminiscing, before I started walking up the stairs.

Coffee..

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