Traitor (Renji Yomo x Reader) [Continued in a second book!]

Overstep (TW: Abuse)

You wanted to leave, you really did. But it was not as easy as it sounded. Renji monitored you, watched over every step you made. There was hardly a minute you were all alone. Your phone? Taken by him. His laptop? Password locked. The front door? Locked and only he had the key. Windows? Barricaded one by one since the day he first abused you. He was obsessed with you but at the same time despised you for who you were. Renji wanted to be the one to make your life hell, he couldn't let you get away. He stopped beating you up after that one day. The beating remained a one time thing, the slaps didn't. Every little mistake upset him and most of the time it resulted in him taking it out on you. Touka attempted to make him stop and instead wanted to take the hit for you, but Renji refused to injure his niece. It was only ever you who got hurt. No matter how hard Touka tried to help you, it was to no avail.

Your decision was final from the moment he first hit you but now that hurting you became a daily issue, you knew you had to hurry and pack your bags. And that's exactly what you did whenever Renji was gone. Touka was usually the one to suggest leaving the house, so you ended up all alone. This both gave you the needed time to relax and time to pack your bags. Leaving was unfortunately still impossible. Every possible, injure-free, way was blocked. You hoped to leave in the middle of some night by stealing his keys. Before that, you hoped to reach out to Chigyou but.. Out of all the times.. That week he canceled your appointment by simply not sending his assistant to pick you up. Or perhaps he sent a message that you never got since Renji took your phone.

Even the Anteiku crew was informed about Renji's behavior through Touka, but they didn't care enough to help you out. The only thing Touka could do to help was buying you time. And that's exactly what she did by continuously suggesting Renji to look for food or a new café they could build together. Lucky for you, he agreed to her most of the time. In the 6 days after he beat you up, he left 3 times - only for short periods, though.

Now 6 days might sound like a lot, but it's truly not. You spent the first 3 days in denial and guilt, desperately trying to understand what happened to your boyfriend and hoping that he'd return to his usual self. But he never did. On one hand, you feared he'd leave you, feared to be abandoned but on the other hand, that was exactly what you wanted. You wanted to leave him. This situation created multiple conflicts within yourself that you still hadn't worked out. There was not enough time. With each passing day, you became more afraid that he'd accidently kill you - and your baby - in one of his aggravated moments. You had to take action before you could try to cope with what exactly happened.

The love for him was still there.. But fading day by day. With each spiteful conversation, remark or slap your heart broke further. At the same time, it also began to upset you. It didn't take long before his outrage started making you angry as well. Yes, you were disappointed and utterly sad but it all resulted in you crying and screaming through your tears in anger as well. Unfortunately, he was stronger than you and it was always you who ended up as a bruised loser.

That your baby was - apparently - still alive was a real wonder. So many cramps and so much stress did it have to endure, yet you never started spotting (=bleeding). Though you barely understood the situation, you knew that you had to leave for the sake of your baby and yourself. No child should be growing up surrounded by verbal and physical abuse. Now that Renji showed his true self, you didn't want him near your baby.

After the denial-phase, you began processing that he was actually a monster and started the actual plotting of how to leave. Touka got the hint and that's when it all began; your actual plan of leaving and her help by buying you time.