Traitor (Renji Yomo x Reader) [Continued in a second book!]

Chain Of Unfortunate Events

Renji took me back into the room after carrying me bridal style. Part of my body was pressed against him, making my heart race. This was the closest I had been to him in months and by far too close. It made me feel anxious and so powerless, brought me back to the moments when he was in control, hurting me. Being in his arms made me want to submit - just so he wouldn't hurt me again. On other days I would've told him to let go of me and back up but I felt way to weak, drained of energy that day.

Even worse, his touches and kisses lingered, tingled on my lips and burned on my skin. I could taste him on me. It all just made me feel worse about this situation. And I didn't know if I could believe him - it wouldn't change a lot, though.

We spent the past few minutes sitting next to each other in complete silence. The room was only filled with Ryuu's cries and the engine of the MRI-device. It felt like an eternity until it finally came to a stop.

Before anyone came over to get me, I jumped up from my wheelchair and hurried over to him.

"Baby, mommy is here.. I-I'm so sorry" I whispered as the nurses removed everything that held him in place - it was truly an unpleasant sight.

My heart dropped even further when I saw how red his face was and that he had imprints on his arms and legs from the straps that held him down. His eyes were bloodshot red from crying and his (y/e/c) orbs were reflecting fear and sadness.. Perhaps even pain. His binky had a colorful plastic chain at the end which was connected Ryuu's shirt with a clip, so he wouldn't lose it. Usually, he always picked it up or somehow fidgeted around with but.. But right then it was just hanging loosely on his stomach.

"Oh god.." I whispered, covering my face with one of my hands for a few seconds in hopes it'd help keep myself together.

Renji walked up behind me, I heard his footsteps approaching. In fear he'd touch me again, I took a step forward crossed my arms. The nurse was still busy untying him while Chigyou waited for a nearby computer to process the results. Renji and I just stood there, watching our son.

As soon as Ryuu was free, he held his arms around towards me and tried to wobble forward.

"Baby, I'm so sorry.." I mumbled, quickly stepping closer to my crying son and picking him up.

His tiny arms wrapped around my neck and he put his head on my shoulder, all his tears soaking my shirt.

"It'll be okay, love. It's supposed to help us help you" I explained, rubbing his back with one of my hands.

"Mwmy" he cried out.

"Ssh, it's okay" I replied, assuring him by kissing his hair, "I love you."

Renji walked up next to me and gently put a hand on Ryuu's back, brushing against my hand in the process. I stopped moving my hand and gulped hard, trying to keep my tears in that were threatening to fall.

Attempting to calm him down, I carefully swayed from left to right. Eventually, he only sobbed loudly and started tugging on my neckline - it was his way of letting me know he was hungry. Even though I started feeding him minced and mashed flesh every now and then, he still preferred to breastfeed. Chigyou informed me that I should breastfeed him as long as he'd need it - he'd wean between 1 and 2 years. I didn't mind - it just strengthened our bond.