Traitor (Renji Yomo x Reader) [Continued in a second book!]

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TW: Negativity, mild suicidal thoughts

The following week, Koutarou didn't leave your side. No matter how much you wanted him to leave, told him off, he didn't listen. The furthest he went was right across from your door so you could cool down on your own. Although it upset you at first, you began to appreciate his help. He helped you do laundry, cleaned your place for you, carried you to bathrooms if necessary, brought new pads when you ran out and he cooked for you. But most importantly, he was the emotional support you needed so badly. Koutarou tried to take as many tasks from you as possible, wanted you to rest up and get better. He stood by your side when your cramps returned and the world came crashing down. Your miscarriage wasn't going easy on you. Aside from the mental pain, your past and all the abuse you suffered through haunting you daily, the contraction alike cramps were really bad. The bleeding had decreased but still caused tremendous distress. On the bright side, all pregnancy symptoms left over, such as nausea and tender breasts, were fading. You could slowly stomach food again and the craving for human food disappeared as well.

If it hadn't been for the past you two shared, you wouldn't have been able to trust him so easily, but you knew he would never hurt you, soon found comfort in his company. Without him, you wouldn't have been able to catch a full nights rest for the first time in ages. He constantly assured you he'd be protecting you, wouldn't let anyone harm you. Knowing he was telling the truth, you could finally relax in your own four walls again. Sometimes you still woke up from nightmares, covered in sweat but he was right there, ready to help you through this. He was protecting you, keeping you as safe as possible.

You still couldn't believe that someone cared for you - again. After witnessing so much ignorance and disrespect, you didn't expect anyone to care anymore. But he did. He really did. He did when Renji seemingly didn't. However, you sometimes doubted him nonetheless. You couldn't help it. All the bad experiences made it hard for you to trust others.

Every now and then your sadness overwhelmed you, made you shut down. Those times you lost your voice, barely made any sounds and quietly grieved. You still weren't over this entire situation, missed Renji and Tetsuo greatly ..and of course, mourned the loss of your child. Koutarou understood. He understood, kept his distance, yet provided support as much as he could. If you happened to start crying, he was right there, ready to hold you, help you through this - only if you let him, of course. You were no longer alone and he wanted to make sure you knew this. He sincerely wanted your health to improve, wanted you to be okay again. Seeing you so broken hurt him - he couldn't stand seeing you like this, not when he still had feelings for you. But it wasn't just those feelings making him help, he loved you in a platonic way, too, valued you greatly. To him, you were still his best friend. Seeing you crack the slightest hint of a smile made his day.

It didn't take long before rumors were going around that the two artificial ghouls were dating: Koutarou and you. It was only a matter of time until Renji heard about it. Because he still loved you, it hurt him greatly. He didn't want you to move on so fast - hoped you'd fight for him some more. Little did he know that you two weren't dating. However, believing that only helped him get over you. Those rumors were what he needed to feel more confident in his decision of being with Itori. Nonetheless, he missed you - just like little Tetsuo.

So far, you still missed him, were severely disappointed by how he didn't show up just once. From someone you devoted your heart and soul to for years, you expected more than silence. Especially because of the videos. You were convinced he was in this, began to believe that he had malice prepense all along.