In The Blink Of An Eye

Welcome Home

We were finally out of the hospital and it was our first day home with our little princess. I am exhausted. Even though my labor wasn't long, it was extremely difficult. Every time I tried to push, I felt this horrible pain in my head. At one point, they were considering doing a c-section because my blood pressure was increasing uncontrollably. Thank God with those last couple of pushes, she was out. When she got home, Lilliana was asleep. So Evan put her down in her crib and came back to be with me.

"Honey, do you need anything? You want me to make you something to eat?"

"No babe I'm not really hungry. But, do you mind making me a smoothie? I need this milk supply to come in."

"I'll get right to it."

"I would have never imagined that we would be talking about my milk supply hehe."

"Well I was hoping that one day we actually would. I never told you because I wasn't sure if you did, but I always wanted to have a baby."

"I did too. I've dreamt of the day I would become a mom my whole life."

"Now you are, and an amazing one at that. When I see you with her, the way you look at her, the gentle way you touch her while she is sleeping, everything about you makes me fall in love with you over and over again."

"In between all the horrible things that I was going through, I met you. When I thought my whole world was falling apart, you were the best part of my life and you always kept me going. You never gave up. I didn't just get lucky, I got blessed to have you not only as my partner but now the father to our daughter."

I looked at Evan and he was crying. He had tears falling down his face which I wiped off. It broke my heart to see the tears in his eyes. I knew I was in love with him, I have been for a very long time but, now I was crazy head over heels in love.

"Ever since Amy died my life was empty. I felt like I had no purpose to live anymore. I have parents, but as you can tell by now, I'm not too close to them. It wasn't always like that but after Amy's death everything changed. I would wake up each day not looking forward to anything. The way I saw you at the hospital was just another day for me. I was working, but counting the hours I could be done to go home and wallow in my pain."

"I didn't know that you were that miserable. You looked okay."

"On the outside. I had to learn how to be for everyone around me. But, on the inside I felt dead. That is, until I saw you. As crazy as it sounds, the minute I laid my eyes on you I felt my heart beat for the first time. I didn't like seeing you in pain and sadness over your friend, but I was glad that you were there."

"Can I ask why you're not close to your parents anymore? I noticed you hardly ever talk about them."

"Growing up, Amy and I were best friends. We did everything together. Most brothers and sisters hated each other, but not Amy and I. We didn't need anybody else, we had each other. So when I left for college and then moved to Erstonia, Amy was alone."

"That's sweet that you two got along so well. And then what happened?"

"Well Amy found new friends, which I was happy about of course. But my parents, not so much. She was hanging around with a couple of girls my parents didn't like. And of course, when Amy died, my parents blamed me. They said as her older brother, I was supposed to protect her, be there for her, make sure nothing bad ever happened to her."

"What happened to her wasn't your fault. It was an unfortunate event. Why would they blame you? You couldn't have saved her even if you stayed in Duskwood."

"I know that, but we all grieve in different ways. I guess it was easier for them to blame me than to accept that she was gone."

"But they already lost...."