In The Blink Of An Eye

Closing My Eyes

Every time I closed my eyes that image of her bleeding to death kept popping up in my head. I couldn't get that image out no matter how hard I tried. Every time I saw that picture of her laying on that floor covered in blood, I would begin to cry. All I wanted was to feel her hug and her warmth one more time. I wanted to see her smile and hear the way she told me that she loved me. All I wanted was to kiss her one last time. I wanted her, I needed her back in my life. I can't do this alone. I can't!!! I can't! I just can't live my life without her! Nooooo....

"Honey, wake up, you're having a nightmare again. I'm right here. Jake!!! Wake up!"

"Oh thank God!!!"

"Sweetheart, we really need to get you some help. I think you need to see someone about these nightmares. You've been having them every single night."

"I'm just glad you're here next to me. Please don't ever leave..."

"Hey! I am not going anywhere. I can't help but feel responsible for these nightmares. It's all my fault."

He looked at me and leaned his head against my chest. He wanted to hear my heart beat. This happened every single night ever since the incident. It's been a few weeks and he hasn't gotten one good night of sleep yet. I didn't know how to help him or what to do to get this mind off that horrible incident.

For those who are confused, it's me Madisyn.

I'm not dead but I could have easily been if it wasn't for Daron. What Jake said was the truth. Daron shot Ted that night but not before Ted shot me. Thankfully, he missed my heart though. It was actually Jake who felt my heartbeat and they transferred me over to the hospital. The reason why the paramedics didn't feel my heartbeat was because I was dead. My heart stopped circulating blood and when they performed CPR on me, it failed. At least it did for a while until my heart started pumping blood again. I'm one of the few. This phenomenon is called the Lazarus syndrome and it rarely ever happens but it happened to me. I was given a second chance at life.

Jake saw me get shot and he saw me fall to the ground covered in blood. He saw me stop breathing in his arms and for him, that was it. I was dead! My heart actually stopped working for fourteen minutes. But in order to be dead, your other organs and brain have to stop working too. Thankfully for me, they didn't. Jake was holding my hand and as he was holding it, he felt a heartbeat in my wrist. When he felt it he started to cry and tell the cops and the paramedics that I was still alive. Of course they all thought he was in shock and didn't want to accept so it was his brain tricking him. But, it wasn't. My heart had actually started beating again.

The only reason he missed my heart by one inch was because Daron shot him too. His arm twitched and it moved an inch away from my heart.

However for Jake, the time before I started breathing again keeps getting replayed in his head over and over. It's been a few weeks since I came back home from the hospital and to this day the nightmares won't stop. He wakes up in the middle of the night screaming and crying. The last few weeks have been a literal nightmare. Everything got messed up, delayed and pushed around or forgotten.

Let's rewind, shall we?

Well for starters let's go with the good news first. Daron didn't go to jail because he saved my life. Ted is dead so there is another relief. Even though I really wanted to know why? Why did he do it? But whatever, doesn't change anything regardless. My dad is back home from the hospital and doing much, much better. He remembers me and remembers everything else as well. He is back on his feet just taking things slow. My sister is not mad at me anymore. I guess almost dying makes people forget all the dumb things you used to argue about. I was in the hospital and now have another interesting scar on my chest but compared to the alternative, I'm okay with the scar. Not to mention, MWAF decided to back off for a while and give me some time to breathe before he tried to kill me as well. Of course now he knows that Daron was helping me which makes it nearly impossible for us to catch him which is the start of the bad news...