In The Blink Of An Eye

Listen To Your Heart

There, he stood right in front of me. A man that I had been waiting to see since I came to Duskwood and years down the road, he was in front of me for the first time. I couldn't believe it. It felt like I was dreaming, and it I blinked, it would all be over. I was scared to close my eyes because of the fear that when I opened them, I would realize that this was all just my mind playing games on me and that this wasn't reality. 

Without even saying a word, he grabbed me into his arms and held on to me in ways I had never been held before. He held me so tight, as if the minute he let me go, I would no longer be there. I was sure that just as much as this felt like a dream for me, it must have felt the same exact way for him as well. 

I have been waiting for this  current moment for so long… This was a dream I've had for years, which seems to just want to disappear. This was a love that once existed and then got completely lost and ought to have been forgotten. I held onto this dream until I couldn't hold onto it anymore. Being held by him was something that I had waiter for so long that at some point, I absorbed it and it became part of who I was and without it, I couldn't have imagined my life, even if I tried. 

I saw this love form, and just like that, I watched it die off. Just like the lightning in the sky, it was gone in an instant, the same way that it filled the night sky. 

I moved on. I fell in love, I got married and had a daughter. I lived my life. Evan was my lover and my best friend. Nobody would ever replace him or the place he formed in my heart. But, the storm that began to form within our hearts, between Jake and I, it died off, and I was sure the storm was gone forever. Now... being held in his arms, this is when I realized the storm had never died off, no matter how hard I tried. 

To this day, I couldn't recognize the moment when our love began, but I recognized the moment that our love ended. 

I looked at him and stared deep inside of his eyes. It was those eyes that I had dreamed of starting into for so long. But, I couldn't look into his eyes without seeing Evan. I couldn't look into his face without imagining Evan's face. I was so happy that Jake was here in front of me and that my heart finally felt at peace after so long. But, I couldn't do it. I couldn't do this to Evan, even though he was forever gone. 

"I have been waiting for this moment for what feels like my whole life," he said.

"Jake...I…"

"I know. You don't have to say anything."

I just looked at him, and he hugged me again. I felt like I never wanted to leave his arms. I don't know how long we even had to cherish this moment. For all I knew, everything could be gone tomorrow. 

He was exactly what I imagined him to be, except for one thing. He was tall, had dark hair and brown eyes, had a smile of a million bucks, and had the most beautiful dimple on one side of his cheek. But, the one thing that stood out to me the most, and from what I remember from the time he saved me, he had a huge scar on his face. I could tell that he hated it because he kept trying to hide that side of his face. He would look at me but in hopes that I wouldn't look at that scar and would see him instead. Which I did. Nor did I care about his scar. 

But...he did. 

Which actually made me wonder if that could be the reason why he didn't want to see me the first time? Maybe that's what Richy and Phil meant when they said he wasn't who he said he was. 

Suddenly, I heard a knock on the door. What the hell? Who was at my door? How did anybody even know that this was my hotel room? Jake got up to open the door, but I stopped him. 

"No, don't open it. We don't know who it is, " I said.

"I got it, don't worry."

"Okay, but be careful."