In The Blink Of An Eye

Scars

I jumped up and hugged him with all of my strength. He picked me up into his arms as I wrapped my legs around him. He looked at me and kissed me. I wasn't going to stop it, not this time. This time, I wanted it just as badly as he did. With each kiss I felt the heat and passion between us get deeper and more intense. We had both been waiting for this moment for years and it was finally happening. As he pulled me closer into his body, I could feel the intensity between us increase. I knew that if I didn't stop it now things were going to get crazy and this was not the time or place for anything wild or crazy to be happening.

"Jake, we can't. Not here and not right now. I want to, just as bad as you do but this is a bad time."

"Says, who?"

He got up and locked the door and closed all the windows. I was aware that if I let this happen, neither one of us would be able to stop this fire inside us from burning everything down. So, I had to stop it before it was too late.

"See? Problem solved" he exclaimed.

"People seeing us wasn't the problem here. It was the fact that I don't want our first time doing anything to be here. I don't want to remember this place or being in hideout every time I think about our first time having sex. Plus, if I have to be honest...I'm just not ready for that, not yet."

"In that case, I completely understand."

My God he was just delicious and perfect!!! The way he looked at me drove me completely insane. I couldn't even think straight when he would look at me and bite his lip without even realizing that he was doing it.

"But- we can definitely still make out," I said.

He looked at me, bit his lip and threw me on the bed as he got on top of me. Holy smoke!!! I don't know how I was going to control myself from not ripping all his clothes off and having it all, any way I wanted. As we were making out, I slowly slid my hand into his shirt and began to touch his back. At first everything was going great. The way he kissed me, the way his body felt on top of mine, the softness of his lips as he gently kissed me made the hairs on my body stand up. Suddenly as I passed my hands over his body, I felt it. A deep scar across his back on the side where his kidney was. As soon as he felt me touch him there, he jerked his body off of me and adjusted his shirt.

I looked at him and I could tell that he was embarrassed but also very sad. I didn't know what to say at first because I was shocked and confused as to what had just happened.

"Did they do that to you?" I asked him softly with sadness in my voice almost on the verge of tears.

He didn't even have to say anything, the pain in his eyes told me everything I needed to know. I got up, walked over to him and hugged him. The anger I felt in my veins was something I couldn't even explain. I kept telling myself that Viktor was right and that I needed to let the law and the justice system handle the psychopaths once they were found, but it was in these kinds of situations where I would completely change my mind. All I wanted to do was make them suffer while I tortured them slowly to make sure they felt every inch of pain and misery they had caused to others.

What Jake said next completely broke me.

"I understand if you think it's disgusting and you don't want to look at me or even be with me because of it."

"Jake, look at me! There are not enough scars in this world that would make me feel differently towards you that I already do. There is not a scar that could make me love and care about you any less than I do right now. Don't you ever say that again."

He heard me. I mean he was listening to me but by the look on his face, I could tell that he wasn't convinced. He kept on saying how good looking Evan was. He even said how good looking Viktor was, he believed Silas was way more handsome than he was. But, he clearly wasn't seeing what I was seeing when I looked at him. So, I did what I had to do to make him understand.