In The Blink Of An Eye

Putting My Foot Down

"Listen to me!!! I barely talk to my parents because I was mad at them. Instead of trying to understand why they acted the way they did, instead of trying to talk to them, I got mad and left. It was bad enough they lost one daughter, they lost me too. My relationship with my parents has never been the same since then, I will not let you make the same mistake with your parents too."

"But Evan..."

"Be mad, I'm not telling you not to be. Yell, shout, scream, do whatever you want. But just go and listen to her. She is your mom and you know she would never do anything to hurt you. I don't even like his ass, but I know that he wouldn't do anything to hurt you."

"Okay, fine. I will go listen. But that's it and then I'm leaving."

We went back in the house and the tension in there was INTENSE AS HELL.

"I just want to apologize to the rest of you for having to hear that. I didn't mean to wake you guys up or start an argument. And mom, as far as you go, I'm willing to listen. However, I think we will be leaving after this."

"Nooo, you can't go," cried my sister.

"Honey, please listen to your mom. After that, do whatever you think is best" exclaimed my dad.

"Okay, I'm listening!!!"

"I didn't mean to hurt you or hide anything from you. Jake has been calling just to check up on you. He was worried about everything that's going on. He didn't want you to find out, because he knew you would react the way you did. All he does is check to see how you're doing and that's it. We don't talk about anything else. You just walked in at the wrong time. I promise you, Jake is not a bad guy nor does he mean any harm to you. Please don't be mad and I don't want you to leave. We love having you guys around. I won't answer his calls anymore."

"First of all, I don't care why Jake is calling. I don't want him calling period, end of the story. And how would I react? I reacted the way any person that has been hurt the way I have would react. Secondly, he has no right worrying about what I am doing or how I am doing? As far as I am concerned, he is dead to me and I am dead to him. The day he left without an explanation, is the day he made up his mind about me and anything cornering me. And honestly, I could care less about what kind of person he is. He showed me who he is and that's all I need to know."

"Babe, don't you think you're being a little dramatic?"

"Evan, don't start. You're not about to get involved in this. I am not being dramatic. From day one, all I had done was care about Jake. What Jake wanted, what Jake needed, I did, whatever Jake said. My whole life revolved around Jake. As if that wasn't enough, he gets caught by the government and leaves me all alone to fend for myself and to get him out at the same time. So, I did just that. I did everything in my power to get him out, including risking my own life. Not once, but multiple times. I could have lost my life and messed up everyone's lives who ever cared about me because of him. What did I want in return? To see him! To be with him! For him to come and hug me one time. For him to look me in the eyes and say that he loves me. That's it!!! That's all I wanted. What did he do? He ran away without a single word. He didn't even make the effort to come see me one time so I would know that at least everything I did wasn't worthless. But I was worthless to him. So, no. I am not being dramatic. If nobody else has anything they would like to add, I am done having this conversation, for the rest of my life."

When nobody said anything, I added,

"I don't care who talks to him and who doesn't. For all I care, every single one of you can be best friends with him. The only thing I ask is, to never mention me in any of your conversations, ever again!!!"