In The Blink Of An Eye

Missing Piece

Looking back now and thinking about those times, it's crazy how much has changed. 

What normal was I even trying to get back to? I haven't had a normal life in years and I hardly remember what normal is anymore and as it turns out, the normal life I thought I once had was all one big lie. Everything I've ever known and lived has been a part of some big secret that came around to bit me on the ass. The worst part? I had no idea why it was happening. There was no normal and everything I was trying to get back to was no longer a possibility. That happy childhood and my teenage life I was trying to get back to, was nothing that I thought it was. Now, I had to accept that this life was my new normal. This time… these past six months and the remaining couple of hours were going to remain as normal as my life was ever going to be again. The minute I find out who the MWAF is and why he did the things he did, my life would never be the same again. 

The fact that I had to find the truth from my dad and the one person I've looked up to my whole life was the part that broke me the most. 

I couldn't believe that both my mom and dad knew about my brother and lied to us our whole lives. 

"You look great with a baby, time to have another one don't you think?" Richy exclaimed. 

I was so into my own thoughts that when he spoke it startled me. I forgot where I was or that I was holding Sofia in my arms. 

"Hehe thank you. I'll have to think about it."

"I want a baby sister or brother too mommy."

Oh God, what have they done??? Lilli never once mentioned that before and now she was going to be talking about this all the time. I had been thinking about having another baby sometime in the future but it was nothing I currently wanted in my life. I had way too much on my mind and in my life right now. 

"Do you guys have anything to do today?" I asked Jessy and Richy. 

"No, we'll be home all day long."

"Do you mind if Jake and Lilli spend time with you guys while I go talk to my dad. When I come back we can go get lunch somewhere all together." 

"Of course, I would love for them to stay."

"Yes mama please I wanna stay here more."

"Okay sounds good. I will be back as soon as possible. I just really need to go and talk to my dad. I can't take this suspense anymore."

"We'll see you when you get back. Good luck" exclaimed Richy. 

"Let me walk you out babe" continued Jake. 

I kissed Lilli goodbye and waved bye to them all. With Jake, I walked outside and got in the car. He leaned over and kissed me. I wanted for him to go with him so bad but I knew that I needed to do this alone. After all, this was personal and I didn't want my dad to feel obligated to leave things out because he couldn't tell me in front of Jake. 

"Hey, don't worry. Everything will be okay I promise, I'm just going to talk to him. I will be back soon."

"I know but I just hate that you're going to be all alone."

"I'm going to be with my dad. As crazy as all this is, you know that he won't ever let anything happen to me. I just need to find out the truth."

"Okay babe, go and see your dad. I'll be here when you come back. Don't worry about Lilli, she'll be fine."

"I never worry about her when she's with you." 

I smiled and closed the car door. As I left, I could feel my heart beating so fast. I didn't know what to expect from my dad, I was just hopeful that he would tell me the whole truth. It was about time I learned about a person I've known nothing about my whole life.