In The Blink Of An Eye

Is It Too Late?

I looked at Jake as the tears rolled down my face and ran out of the venue. He tried to run after me but my sister stopped him. "Just give her time Jake" she exclaimed after him. I grabbed the car keys which were hanging by the front of the venue and opened the car. I didn't even know that it was raining outside. I'm not sure how long it's been raining but it was pouring outside. There is a saying that it's good luck for it to rain on your wedding day because as you know, a knot is nearly impossible to untie once it becomes wet. So if you "tie the knot" on a rainy day your marriage and love will be just as hard to unravel. Rain on a wedding day also signifies fertility, cleansing, unity, renewal and tears. Rain is said to be good luck when it comes to tears because it symbolizes the last tears that the bride will shed for the rest of her life.

Well, apparently for us the rain was anything but good luck.

I don't know if this was going to be the last time I cried but I was drowning in my own tears. It wasn't just Brayden ruining my wedding, it was everything. Jake, my siblings, my dad, friends, Evan, my mom, Lilli and everything that I had been through. Not to mention I was super emotional!!! I felt like nothing was going right no matter how hard I tried. Even this one day that I thought was going to be perfect ended up being a complete nightmare.

I sat down in the car soaking wet from the rain. I leaned my head against the window as I watched the pouring rain outside. Just as the rain poured in this rainstorm so did the tears from my eyes.

Jake never even got to kiss me as his bride.

If it's true what Brayden said, I don't even know how long we're going to remain married. Why would Jake not tell me about my brother? How could he hide such a thing from me? He didn't know just for a couple of days, no... he knew for years and hid it all from me. He knew how badly I wanted to know who the MWAF is and how much I wanted to find him, yet Jake knew the entire time. I just prayed to God that it wasn't true because if it was, I don't know what I was going to do.

While I was in the car crying I heard a knock on the window. I opened my eyes and saw my dad standing there. He was getting wet from the rain so I unlocked the door and let my dad in.

"Hi honey. Are you okay?"

"No dad I'm not! I have no idea what to think. How could Jake lie to me about that? How could he look at me and know the truth and not say anything to me?"

"I don't know honey but your mom and I also didn't tell you guys that you had a brother. Don't be too quick to judge him and be mad. Talk to him first, maybe he had a reason."

"I just can't deal with all this right now. It's all too much. I am going to take Lilli and rent a hotel for a few days. I need time away from anything and anyone. I'd rather take some time for myself than end up arguing and regretting it."

"If that's what you need honey then do that. He needs to understand. I know you just got married and the last thing you want is to be apart but under these circumstances, it's understandable."

"Understandable or not, I need to think about my health. I have already been vomiting and not feeling good, I can't deal with all this stress right now."

"You've been vomiting? Since when?"

"Today the entire morning. I ended up in the emergency room and the doctor gave me Zofran so it helped me."

"Honey, you're not pregnant are you?"

"No I'm not. I just recently had my menstrual cycle."

"Talk to Jake honey and at least tell him what you're planning on doing. You don't want to just get up and leave. After all, he is your husband."