In The Blink Of An Eye

Better Than Sex

We sat in the car and drove to the shop. I sat in the car while Jake went out to try on the suits. He was a man and all suits looked the same, or damn near the same so I was sure he wouldn't take too long. In the meantime, I called Jessy to ask her if she was ready to go look for the wedding dresses. I was supposed to go with Jessy and my sister but my sister was mad at me right now so I was just going to ask Jessy to come along with me while Jake waited in the car. I knew exactly the kind of dress I wanted so I was sure that it wasn't going to be too complicated finding the right dress.

"Hello?"

"Hi Jessy, how are you?"

"I'm doing well. How are you?"

"I'm okay thanks. I was actually just calling to see if you could come wedding dress shopping with me?"

"Omg of course!!! I wouldn't want to miss that for anything in the world. When are you going?"

"Well Jake is out looking for his suit right now so is it okay if we pick you up once he's done?"

"That works with me. I'll get ready and you call me when you're here."

"Okay I will. Thanks Jessy."

"See you in a bit."

I've been aware of the wedding for months now but the closer the date got, the more anxious I got. I just wanted everything to go as smoothly as possible. I've never been wedding dress shopping before and the fact that I was about to go try on dresses made everything feel that much more real. It was finally happening!!! I couldn't believe that the day was almost here and it felt like a lifetime ago that I was wondering if this day would ever come true. I remember sitting in my apartment wondering if I would ever meet this mysterious man that was now part of my life and that I had never seen? I remember feeling happy every single time I talked to him and praying for the minute he would get back online so I could talk to him again. Now...here he was and we were days away from our wedding.

I remember the first time I came to Duskwood, wanting to see him and he wasn't there. The heartbreak I felt and the sadness that took over me was something I had never felt before. I kept asking myself if I could actually be that in love with a person I had never seen. I remember thinking how stupid and naive I was to ever believe that he felt the same way about me. That day when he was supposed to come and he didn't, I remember lying in bed saying to myself "Of course he's not going to show up you idiot. What were you thinking coming all this way for a man who might not even exist."

Here I was sitting in the car waiting for him to try on his suit for our wedding day while reminiscing about old memories and the days where I dreamed that this day would come.

One day shortly after he came back into my life while we were lying next to each other he turned to me and asked "did you ever think we were going to meet and how did you know that you were in love with me?" God, at that time I remember looking at him thinking of course I did and I just knew because of how much I loved being around him. Hehe!!! Oh how simply put, right? Like it's always just been that easy. Truth is that it was never that easy, it was never simple between the two of us. From the very beginning to this day right now...it's never been simple. I wish I could tell you this amazing love story where we met and things were all great while we traveled and enjoyed each other's company, falling in love more and more each day. Oooh I would be lying if I said it was anywhere close to that. The truth is, I didn't think we were actually ever going to meet. As much as I wanted to and we both wanted to, I was pretty sure that the day would never come. Even when the day came I was still sure that he and I would still not meet, which it ended up being the exact way I figured it would be. Unfortunately, life doesn't always turn out the way you want it to no matter how badly you wish it would. For us...it was the opposite of what we wanted.