In The Blink Of An Eye

When Your Past Calls

I had to have been dreaming because there was no way Jake was calling me. Don't think that I was happy that he was. It was actually just the opposite of that. I was pissed!!!

The words that came out of his mouth made me want to scream at him on top of my lungs.

It's been five years. FIVE!!! Where has he been all this time? And why was he calling me now? I didn't really care, honestly. But, I wanted to stick around just for the hell of it to see what dumb ass reason he was going to come up with now.

I mean, if he came up with a reason, it would be better than what he did last time. Remember? When he just left me without any explanation at all.

"Can I see you?" He asked.

"Not only can you not see me, but I don't want you to call this number ever again in your life."

"I messed up."

"Yeah, no shit. BIG TIME!"

"Give me one chance."

"I have! Unless you don't remember. I did give you the chance, and you fucked it all up."

"I just want to see you and explain myself."

"There is nothing for you to explain nor do I care about any explanation at all. It's been years and I have moved on with my life. You're too late. Good night."

I hung up!!!

I knew he was going to call me back, so I turned my phone off completely.

There was no way in hell I wanted to talk to him let alone see him. He had been gone for years when I needed him. Well, now I don't need him at all.

When I was going through hell he was nowhere to be found. I had no type of intention of listening to anything he had to say now. I mean, come on seriously? What could he possibly tell me that would make what he did right in any way? That he was scared? That he was trying to protect me? He lied to me about who he was? He had a wife? Honestly, anything would have been better than what he did.

I was having a great day he didn't have to come and fuck everything up.

After I turned my phone off, I put it to the side and tried to fall asleep. Except, I think we are all aware that wasn't going to happen. So I got up and watched some television. My curiosity kept picking at me, I needed to know if he called me back again. I turned my phone back on and decided to look.

Not only did I have one missed call, but I had five. I guess he must have either realized I turned my phone off at that point, or he just got bored of trying. Why was I so damn curious? Why couldn't I just let this go?

It was getting late so I closed my eyes and fell asleep.

When I woke up the next morning, I had a few more missed calls. The thing I didn't understand was why he was calling me off a blocked number? If he really wanted to see me, he should call off his number, or was he still in hiding?

I couldn't do this. Not after the psycho was already gone and my life was somewhat back to normal. I couldn't take the risks I used to take before. I had a daughter to worry about and I couldn't let anything happen to her.

But I just couldn't stop thinking about it.

When I woke up, I went down to make breakfast before Lilli got up. When my phone rang, I totally ignored it thinking it was Jake again. I was not about to answer. He would just have to get it and move on.

It was around nine in the morning and I went to Lilli's room to wake her up. She usually woke up alone but her breakfast was getting cold.

"Honey, wake up. Mama made you breakfast."