In The Blink Of An Eye

The Date

I can't believe the day is finally here! I have been waiting for this day for so long now. Honestly, at one point, I just gave up hope that it would ever happen. I am finally meeting the guy that I have been talking to for so long and, yet have never seen his face. I know what most of you all are thinking, "Have you lost your mind? How dare you go and meet a guy you've never seen before. You don't even know who he is!" I know... Those same thoughts have crossed my mind a million times on different occasions. So, you are not the only one who thinks that what I am about to do is just straight crazy.

Somehow, as many times as my head has told me to stop and that what I am doing is a huge mistake, my heart keeps pulling me towards him. If I'm going to be honest, it always has. As excited as I am to finally meet him, I am just as nervous and a little scared. I mean, after all, I don't know if he is who he says he is. I can only go with what my heart is telling me, but I think we all know our hearts can play tricks on us. I know mine has! We met the craziest, wildest, out of the ordinary way possible. If someone had ever told me this story, I wouldn't have believed it myself. On one normal average day, he just showed up in my life, and I haven't been able to get him off my mind since. Some might call it destiny, luck, and even faith that we met, but I wish we had met any other way than the way we did. Not only because I've never been able to see him, but because it has been the most unbelievable time of my life. I don't mean that in a good way. Trust me. It's actually just the opposite of that.

I met him, this mysterious man that appeared out of nowhere, when I somehow got involved in a kidnapping of a young girl named Hannah. Sorry, let me rephrase that. I didn't get involved in her kidnapping. In fact, I had nothing to do with that. I got involved in finding her kidnapper even though I had no idea who she was, actually I had never even heard of her before.You might now be wondering if I have actually lost my mind, and I guess you can say that I have. I don't know why I got involved or why I just went along with it. Didn't I see how dangerous and suspicious all that was? I guess in a way I did. I just couldn't turn my back on a girl who was in danger, missing, and might have needed my help to find her. As crazy as it sounds, I felt like I was there for a reason. That's how he came into my life, like a sudden outburst of wind on a sunny day. When I was least expecting it, he came into my life and changed it from its roots.

"Who is this guy, and why did he pick you?" You might be asking, and I'm right there along with you! I don't know. To this day, I still don't know. I wouldn't even know where to begin explaining it. I'm hoping I will finally find out. At least I'm praying that I will. That might be the reason why I am so scared to finally meet him. What if what he tells me changes everything about us? What if he doesn't end up being who he has been telling me? How do I even know I'm going to be safe? These questions make perfect sense in my mind, but my heart thinks I'm crazy. My mind is telling me one thing and my heart another. I'm absolutely head over heels in love with him. I am!!! That's why it doesn't make sense in my heart to question him. My heart knows that what he has been telling me is the truth. I know he is who he says he is. But, somehow, my head is spinning a million miles an hour.

I woke up this morning, thinking I would just be ready to get the day started and to finally meet him. But...the closer the time gets, the more I seem to want to just run away and disappear. Am I crazy for doing this? "Absolutely, I am totally out of my mind." It is now close to five o'clock in the afternoon, and I still haven't even put a single bite of food in my mouth. My stomach is turning from the excitement and nerves that if I take anything to eat, I might just end up puking everywhere. So, I'll just wait and hopefully be in a mood to eat after I meet him, or I might just never eat again. We have this "date" set up for eight tonight, and I can't seem to calm down enough to even sit down. I have been pacing back and forth in my apartment like a crazy lady. I'm sure if someone saw me right now, they would for sure think that I have done something horrible, like kill someone. "Calm down, take a deep breath, and relax," I tell myself.