In The Blink Of An Eye

I Love You

I wasn't hungry, I was just extremely thirsty. I mean after a dream like that and all the stress I just went through, how could I not be? While Evan ate, I got myself a drink and went to sit down. I had to think about what the next step was now that Phil had all the evidence Jake wanted me to see. I didn't know where to start. Phil had said that there were so many things, letters, names, numbers, and I didn't know what any of that meant. I couldn't mess this up.

I spent the next few hours just taking it easy, both on my mind and body. I needed to rest as much as possible but the last thing I wanted to do was sit around doing nothing. However, if I didn't take it easy and my symptoms came back again, I would have to go back to the hospital... which was the last thing I wanted. I would need Phil and Evans help, as I knew I wasn't going to be able to solve anything Jake wanted me to do, all by myself. Especially not with these horrible recurring headaches. I didn't want Evan to find out about the headaches as they were the very first sign of my symptoms coming back. I just ignored it and hoped it was my regular migraines.

I had to call Phil and see when he could come over and bring the things he found. I just couldn't sit around any longer doing nothing. Plus, I was really interested in seeing what Jake wanted me to see. I dial his number and wait.

"Hello?"

"Hi Phil. What's up?"

"At Arora. My stupid ass workers messed up my new orders and I have to do it all myself now. You?"

"Here in the room, just relaxing and watching television. Are you going to be busy tomorrow?"

"In the morning I have a few things to take care of, and I should be done by the afternoon. Why?"

"Do you mind coming over? Also, bring all the things you found please. I really want to take a look at everything."

"Sure, of course. I'll be there."

"Okay great I'll see you tomorrow then."

After we hung up, Evan came and sat down next to me. I was watching a show, so he just joined it. I loved spending time with him, talking and joking around. But, sometimes just enjoying each other's company in the quiet was even better. He was the type of person that I could say nothing to, and he still somehow managed to understand me.

The thing with Evan was that he had a personality which instantly made you feel connected to him. Without even trying, everyone around him loved him, including my friends and family. Jake, on the other hand, seemed to be the exact opposite. It's like no matter how hard he tried, someone didn't either trust or like him. He didn't open up much and kept pretty much everything to himself. Even when he did try, it always came out as cold and distant. One thing that scared me the most about meeting Jake in person was his past life. Even if I managed to get him out of jail, and we put all this behind us, I still didn't know the real reason why the government was after him. How could I be happy knowing that at any time of the day someone could be after him and trying to get back at him for something?

As I had said once before, falling in love with Jake was so easy, but being in love with him was so hard. While with Evan, I never had to worry about his life catching up to him sooner or later. I mean of course, I would be willing to sacrifice everything for Jake and to be with him even if it meant running away far away from everyone. Being alone with him didn't scare me, I was willing to give up anything. But what scared me was starting a family and having kids.

I wanted to be a mom one day as most women do. I wanted to experience that special bond with someone who I would unconditionally love. However, Jake came with baggage that might never allow me to become one. Actually, we never ever talked about that. Kids and marriage I mean. We never really talked about anything besides Duskwood. I knew Jake much longer then I knew Evan, but I felt much closer to Evan even in a shorter amount of time.