In The Blink Of An Eye

Keep Hanging On!

Silas was alone, Candace and him had broken things off after the passing of Maya. Honestly, I'm sure the only reason they were together was for Maya. I was all alone and finally okay with where I was in my life. Silas and I have been friends for many years and went through more things together than the majority of people ever will. At one point we both had feelings for each other and wanted to be together, but life had other plans. We remained close throughout the years and helped each other through all the ups and downs.

It must have been late in the evening when I heard a knock on my door one night. I wasn't sure who it was so I looked through the peephole and saw Silas standing in front of my door. I immediately figured that something was wrong and that he needed my help. I opened my door and the minute he saw me, he grabbed me and pulled me into his arms.

"I can't keep lying to you and I definitely can't keep lying to myself. I love you Madisyn! I want us to be together, we deserve to be."

"Silas! Get in here...what is going on??"

"I can't do this anymore. I can't get you off my mind. You're all I think about! I want you and I want you right now."

I should have stopped it right then and there. I should have pulled away and talked to him instead. But, I wanted him just as bad as he wanted me. It's been so long since I've been kissed or touched. It's been so long since I had a man look at me the way Silas did. There was something between us that was impossible to ignore and push away from. I shouldn't have done what I did and I knew that I was mostly going to regret it, but I did it anyway.

"I want you too! Take me, I'm all yours" I whispered to him.

The second he laid his hand on my lower back and pulled me closer into his body, I knew that I was going to be fucked...literally. I was divorced, I was lonely and I was extremely horny. He was standing in front of me with this look in his eyes like I was the juiciest piece of meat and he was a hungry Lion that hasn't eaten in so long.

My kids were both asleep and my bedroom was empty. I haven't had sex on that bed in so long. I wanted to be touched! I remembered how great Silas was and how amazingly he fucked me the last time. As soon as he grabbed me and kissed me, that was it. We both started ripping our clothes off and he picked me up and threw me on the bed. I forgot how amazing it felt to have someone want you so badly. I forgot what it felt like to be wanted, not only emotionally but physically as well. There was something about Silas that drove me wild. He brought out a side of me sexually that no other man did. Silas and I fucked and we fucked all night. It was AMAZING! Not only did I feel wanted and attractive and sexy, but he made me feel loved.

We both fell asleep in each other's arms and when I woke up in his arms the next morning, he looked at me and smiled.

From that night forward, Silas and I saw each other a lot and we had sex even more. Every chance we got we couldn't keep our hands off each other. My kids both knew Silas and they loved him. But, I couldn't let them see that Silas and I were anything more than friends. With each day that passed by I realized something. Those feelings I felt when I was around Silas that I was missing around Jake, were all just made up. They were all in my head. It didn't take me long to realize that all I ever could have with Silas was amazing sex and an amazing friendship. I was right that I did feel differently with Silas and with Jake. With Jake I felt love while with Silas I felt lust. I wasn't the only one to realize that, he did as well.

I had an everyday life with Jake. I had a marriage. Our life wasn't all milk and honey. We had arguments, we had kids, responsibilities, stress, pain, a lot of different situations that life had thrown to both of us. We couldn't just fuck and go to sleep and go see each other the next time we wanted to fuck. Things were real life with Jake whereas with Silas, it was all a nice fantasy. It was easy for me to find even the smallest things I found about Jake. It was easy to notice when he was tired and when he was mad. It was more noticeable when he wanted time to himself and to be away from me. It was easy to find the flaws in my life with Jake because I actually had a real life with him.