In The Blink Of An Eye

Should Have Trusted Him

I felt my heart beating and my knees shaking. I kept taking deep breaths as everything around me was spinning. I felt like my whole world came crashing down. "Please God, let this be a nightmare that I'm going to wake up from" I kept repeating to myself. Suddenly I heard a female voice next to me.

"Madisyn, are you okay? You don't look too well. I was worried about you so I came to check on you."

"I'm sorry, I'm okay. It's just that the person I saw earlier...well let's just say he's not supposed to be here."

"Do you want to go somewhere else?"

"I mean like he's not supposed to be walking around these streets. He's supposed to be in jail."

"Wait, you mean... the man without..."

"I'm sorry WHAT? You know about that??"

"Yeah Jake told me all about him. That's all he was ever focused on. All he ever talked about was trying to find him."

"I'm sorry if I'm a little confused but how long did you and Jake talk??"

"Let's go sit down and we can talk."

We went back to the table and ordered coffee. I was right there with her but I was also in a thousand different places in my thoughts. My mind was running all over the place that I could hardly focus on anything around me.

"Jake and I dated for about three years. We were supposed to get married. But, things happened. I flaked out on him. I was just scared to get into that kind of commitment knowing what he did and that he was in trouble. See, when I first met him and almost our whole relationship, things were normal. Suddenly he began to change. At first I thought it was because of me or that he was cheating. However, he told me that he was in trouble and that the government was looking for him. So, I freaked out and I left."

"That's when you guys broke up?"

"Yeah. I completely deleted him and stopped talking to him. He tried to get in contact with me multiple times but I always ignored him."

"Wow that's a bit harsh for someone you once loved. Don't you think so?"

"Trust me I regretted that decision all these years. I couldn't stop thinking about him or what would have happened if I didn't run. I couldn't stop thinking if we would have still been together or not."

"So you decided to contact him?"

"I did! Unfortunately, it was too late. Of course I didn't know that at the time. When I started talking to him again all of my feelings came rushing back like I never left. I wanted to ask him for forgiveness and I wanted to try again. Well, it turned out that he already had moved on and in love."

"When did you find that out?"

"When he told me recently. Don't get me wrong I don't want you to think that he was hiding your relationship or anything, far from that. He never said he was in a relationship but he never made any kind of moves on me. We talked as friends. When he asked to see me, I got excited. I can't even lie and say that I didn't hope he was going to forgive me."

"What happened when you guys saw each other? Sorry I'm asking all these questions..."

"Hey no, nothing to be sorry about. I would question everything too. He is your fiance and the man you're marrying and I'm his ex-girlfriend. It's natural to want to know."

"Thanks for understanding. I just couldn't marry him and start our lives together not knowing the whole truth. It's not that I don't trust him but we've been through a lot together. Plus, I have a daughter I need to worry about."