Why am I never enough??

part 4

(sorry for not updating i lowkey forgot) anyways

As i woke up that morning i got in the shower thinking about how i have to go back to hel- i mean school and deal with mr.pervert, it really made me mad that the principal didn't even believe me WHEN I LITERALLY have a broken wrist!! anyways cheer tryouts are today and i'm trying out i know i have a broken wrist but before then i could do flips better than any cheerleader so the coach is giving me an exception and i get my cast off in 2 weeks which is our first game, after thinking to myself and getting dressed i head down the stairs to get my keys
Y/m: hey baby did you sleep well last night??
Y: yes ma'am where were you i came home but you weren't here
Y/m: sorry i had to work a late shift at the hospital
(oh fyi mom is a doctor)
Y: oh ok well i'm going to school i love you
Y/m: i love you too
before i leave the house i give my mom a kiss on the cheek and take an apple and water (yk gotta get slim) when i pull up to school like every day i see mike, kobe, derek and vallyk waiting for me we walk into class and the intercom goes off
intercom~int
int~ IF YOU ARE TRYING OUT FOR CHEER PLEASE MEET IN THE GYM AT THIS MOMENT
the whole class starts looking at me when i stand up and i can feel myself getting nervous but i also notice dejuane looking at me so i wave then ofc mr.pervert had to say something
T~ good luck y/n (he says winking at me)
Y: i hope you know i REALLY fucking hate you
dejuane bust out laughing causing me to smile at him and i walk out
~after tryouts~
i see the boys waiting for me so i run to them
M: so what happened
Y: we ran did stunts and cheers and flips, i could only do some stunts and cheers ofc
D: well did you make it
Y: idk they said if we made it they'll call us to the gym during last block
K: oh okay
~skip to last block~(because i'm lazy)
i'm sitting in my final class really nervous, this class i have with all the boys plus dejuane so if i don't make it they'll all know, as i'm deep in thought the intercom goes off

int~ THE FOLLOWING PEOPLE MADE THE CHEER TEAM AND NEED TO GO TO THE GYM AT THIS TIME.....
i'm now tapping my foot because i'm anxious and the boys are just looking at me with their fingers crossed
int~ Y/N/L, MONROE CAPRI, AVANI, CYNTHIA AND CELIA, etc (ill add more later)
i heard my name and yelled
Y: AHH LETS GOOOO
the boys started hyping me up and dejuane said
De: congrats
Y: thank you but gtg 🤪 ya girl made the team
i grab my stuff and run to the gym
Coach: alright ladies look around you these girls are not only your teammates but your sisters i want all of you to get along so we'll do some games and trust exercises then we'll get y'all measured to find out your size sound good??
Everyone~E
E: YES COACH
~after evaluation~
K: you ready to go home
Y: yes i'm so tired
M: what did y'all do
V: yea
Y: nun really some trust exercises and got measured
D: so y'all saw each other naked?!?
Y: no idiot we kept on our bra and panties
K: damn i would've liked to see that
M: same
Y: y'all are weird but come on i'm tired and wanna gts
V: i'm driving
Y: fine by me
we got in the car and drove to my house, the boys were spending the night so we all got in my bed and watched Netflix next thing i know i was sleep