Why am I never enough??

part 109

~2 months later~

Dejuanes pov:

it's been 2 months since everything happened, y/ns dad became a police officer and had gotten closer with y/n he even comes and sees the kids now also y/n and nique got closer than before and she's happy with derek and everyone in the house is so chill but malu has been getting abusive and before i continue i don't wanna sound like a bitch but i refuse to hit her or any female so i just let it happen, she has had her friends jump me and she continuously hits my side so it won't heal and it's been bruised up multiple times before and once she hit it so hard the stitches came undone and i had to get it restitched i refused to tell anyone because i didn't want them looking at me differently but yesterday she hit my side again multiple times then left while i laid on the bedroom floor silently crying and holding my side due to how much pain i was in and since i couldn't wear a shirt yet i went into the kitchen to get some food then i saw y/n in there sitting on the counter swinging her feet back and forth and eating strawberries while on her phone then when she sees me coming she looks up and gives me a smile that just makes me so freaking happy

Y: hey dejuane!!
Dejuane: hey y/n you seem happy today
Y: i am i'm going on a date with derek
Dejuane: oh well i hope y'all have fun
Y: thank y- what's up with your side
Dejuane: nothing i just fell
Y: how dumb do you think i am
Dejuane: like really dumb
Y: oh fuck you

me and y/n start laughing but i laugh too hard and my side starts hurting so i grab it in pain then y/n notices so she hurry's up and gets off the counter then takes my hand leading me into my room and sat me on my bed then she walked out and a few minutes later she came with a first aid kit and she put some neosporin it then hydrogen peroxide on then she wrapped it up and it felt better so i hug her then we say side to side while she ruffles my hair and i look up laughing at her then when we stop laughing we just look at each other then i lean in and y/n backs up

Y: alright well um i think you should be fine
Dejuane: oh yea thank you
Y: no problem so now are you gonna tell me what happened
Dejuane: i fell
Y: dejuane stop the lying you didn't fucking fall now what happened
Dejuane: i don't really feel like talking about it

i don't know why but when i said that y/n started crying then she got up and walked out the door slamming it shut, i put my face in my hands and felt my eyes getting watery then the door opens and i look up thinking it's y/n but malu came in instead

Malu: why was she in here
Dejuane: she was wrapping my side
Malu: then why was she crying
Dejuane: um she felt bad for me

when i said this malu slapped me serval times until a side of my face turned dark red and was numb then she left again and like always i sit there just crying then i walk out the room and sit on the couch just overthinking then i start crying again

Y: why are you crying

i look beside me and see y/n and i didn't even know she was in here so i hurry and wipe my tears

Dejuane: oh nothing you just made me feel bad
Y: oh but what's up with your face
Dejuane: i hit it on the counter

once again i lied and once again y/n was crying harder than last time then she stood up and went infront of me

Y: why don't you trust me
Dejuane: what do you mean i do trust you
Y: no you don't because you're lying straight to my face it's like once we broke up you stopped trusting me
Dejuane: i'm sorry i'm just not ready to speak on it
Y: then just say that but don't sit here and lie to me like i gave you a reason to do so even though youre always throwing it back at me i never lied to you and when i did i told you when you asked the second time if you don't want to tell me then fine i don't care anymore i just thought you needed someone to talk to but i guess you just don't want that person to be me so be like that all you want

then she went upstairs still crying and i threw my head back on the couch looking at the ceiling and crying after a while i went upstairs to y/ns room and i walked in seeing her laying down and watching tv

Y: get out
Dejuane: i came to talk
Y: now you wanna talk how ironic
Dejuane: i'm serious
Y: i tried to talk to you but you didn't want to so get out dejuane
Dejuane: let me explain
Y: no out
Dejuane: she hits me
Y: wait what

y/n says sitting up on the side of her bed facing me

Dejuane: she's been hitting me for 2 months ever since y'all fought and it's getting worse
Y: why didn't you tell me when it first happened
Dejuane: because i thought i had it under control
Y: well obviously you didn't
Dejuane: i know but i tried
Y: and i respect you for that but if she hits you again promise you'll tell me??
Dejuane: i promise y/n and thank you so much for caring
Y: ofc

y/n hugs me then she moves over so i can lay in bed with her and once i do i hug her waist and she plays with my curls until i fall asleep

y/ns pov:

once dejuane fell asleep i got up and going to the bathroom to shower while i'm in the shower i hear someone bursts in my room so i hurry and turn the water off, get dressed again and lean my ear to the door and listen

??: why tf are you in her room
Dejuane: she was comforting me
??: i don't fucking care

then i hear a VERY loud smack so i walk out the bathroom and i see malu standing above dejuane and dejuane laying on the bed shielding his side so i go up to malu and slap her harder than she slapped dejuane then she fell down crying

Y: now you know how it feels bitch i swear if you land another hand on him i'll kill you and i can promise you that now get your worthless ass up and out my fucking house

malu gets up and walks out and i go downstairs and into the kitchen getting an ice pack then i go back upstairs and put it on dejuanes face then i call derek asking him if we could cancel the date and he's says yes and we reschedule it then dejuane lays the side of his face that wasn't hit on my stomach while i laid down and i used my other hand to hold the ice pack on his face while he fell back alseep then once he was completely sleep i took the ice pack off and put it on the night stand then i mess with his curls until i fall asleep also

yea i'm still doing work and i have practice tomorrow 🙃