Why am I never enough??

part 166

once i woke up i went to kobe's room to talk to him but when i walked in i saw tatyana in there so i just shook my head and walked out and i went into the living room sitting down with my face in my knees just thinking and then someone shakes me so i look up seeing kobe and i hit his hand off of me and put my head back

Kobe: it's not what it looks like
Y: sure it isn't kobe
Kobe: it's not we were just talking
Y: it's not even the fact she was in there it's the fact that yea i'm close to dejuane but not once since i was with you was he EVER in my room!!! and what hurts is that i go to your room and see her in there because if you don't want me and you want to go back to her then do that but don't cheat on me that shit is so foul
Kobe: i'm not cheating
Y: well you got to be doing some dog ass shit for that bitch to be in your room at mother fucking 3 o'clock at night ain't no bitch in the room with a nigga this late unless they fucking or they dating and last time i checked me and you were dating not you and tatyana so why the fuck is she in your room this late
Kobe: because we were just talking
Y: that's fucking bullshit and you know it because if it was me you wouldn't take that sorry ass answer as an excuse so why the fuck do you think i will
Kobe: y/n i'm not lying
Y: mane fuck you and that bitch you a dog ass nigga and i should've seen that shit from the jump ain't no bitch in someone's room at 3 just to mother fucking talk bruh i'm not slow and i wasn't born yesterday you bitch i'm so sick of it you come to me talking and preaching loyalty and you going behind my back the whole time that shit is upright foul bruh like you really been doing me dirty but be jumping down my throat when you think i'm doing something with dejuane like come on dude are you kidding me right now
Kobe: we were just talking
Y: stop trying to feed me that sorry ass excuse boy ain't nobody talking at no fucking 3 at night so save the bullshit for a bitch dumb enough to believe it because all you got me right now is fucked up!!!!
Kobe: stop yelling i'm telling the truth
Y: no the fuck you aren't why are you lying to my fucking face dude!!!!
Mike: bruh what's wrong y'all woke me up
Y: kobe a dog ass nigga on God bruh
Derek: what he do
Y: he got tatyana in his room talking about they just fucking talking
Vallyk: ain't nobody just talking at 3 at night
Y: exactly he has to think i'm fucking dumb
Kobe: we were just talking dude
Y: talking about what kobe what the fuck could y'all be talking about
Kobe: the kids
Y: stop with the same bullshit lie it's tiring just do you because we are done bruh you can have that bitch
Kobe: we were just talking baby what else do you want me to say
Y: don't call me that because we aren't together i'm done with you and you ain't just talking so save the lies and stop using your kids as ways to get away with snake ass shit as far as i'm concerned you and that bitch can have each other mane because i'm done i really trusted you dude like come on was all the jealousy and arguing just a way to blind me from the shit you were really doing but don't even answer that question because i don't want to hear your voice or see you matter of fact don't even talk to me no more dude because you foul as fuck for that shit

i slap kobe so hard that my hand starts stinging then i go upstairs and grab my purse and keys and i get in my car driving off to where i was going and once i got there i knocked on the door and they let me in and without a word i went to there room getting under the cover and facing away from them

Dejuane: well hey to you too
Y: mane fuck this shit
Dejuane: alright what's wrong because you only talk like this when you're beyond pissed
Y: bruh that mother fucker brought that bitch to the house at 3am talking about they just talking does he think i'm fucking dumb or some thing
Dejuane: ok who's the mother fucker and who's the bitch
Y: kobe and tatyana
Dejuane: so he cheated on you
Y: yes then he gone try and tell me that they were just talking mane fuck all that ain't no one up at 3am just talking dude
Dejuane: ok y/n call down
Y: no cause i really trusted his dog ass he always preached loyalty to me but he was going behind my back the whole time
Dejuane: i know but you can't let it get to you
Y: bruh i'm so heated right now

dejuane came to me and held my hand but then he felt how hot it was

Dejuane: you slapped him didn't you
Y: mane i slapped the shit out of him

dejuane laughed then put some cold water on my hand while i sat there shaking my leg and crying frustrated tears then he gave me a hug and i calmed down a little then he sat next to me and we just talked and went through old pictures and i started feeling better then he gave me a high five once i was fully calmed down and i laughed then he kissed my forehead and went to sleep and a while later i put my arm across his chest and my head on the pillow right beside his head then i put my leg across his lap with the other one going straight down and went to sleep also

my food came cold 🙄