Why am I never enough??

part 127

i was sitting on the sink and i started to get tired but i was not leaving out so i just start jumping up and down trying to stay awake then i crack the door open and i see dejuane still butterball naked sitting on my bed and playing the game so i gently close the door and sit on the floor

Dejuane: alright y/n i'm getting dressed and leaving
Y: i really don't trust you
Dejuane: alright then sleep in there
Y: i will

i sit there and try to look for my phone then i remember it's in the room so once i hear the room door close i hurry and walk out but as soon as i do i hear the bathroom door close so i turn around and dejuane is smirking so try to run out the door but dejuane picks me up and throws me on the bed then he slowly walks up to me

Y: move bitch
Dejuane: nah i'm good

dejuane was now hovering over me and i could feel his thing on my thigh

Y: ok well at least stand back up so i can take my clothes off
Dejuane: bet

dejuanes stands up and i run past him and down the stairs then i hide beside the couch

Mattia: what's going on
Y: shhhh
Devyn: girl wha-

before devyn could speak dejuane fully dressed again comes down the stairs

Dejuane: where's y/n
Melissa: why??
Dejuane: just answer the question
Sharan: she's beside the couch
Y: BITCH

dejuane runs towards me but i run away and now we're running around every couch while i'm screaming

Kairi: WHATS GOING ON
Y: HES TRYNA FUCK ME
Devyn: um chile
Y: HELP ME
Sharan: chile anyways what movie y'all wanna watch
Gabby: let's watch the lion king
Angel: no let's watch rapunzel
Jale: so we gone act like y/n ain't getting chased
Melissa: mama ain't raise no snitch i don't see nun
Y: I FUCKING HATE YOU GUYS
Mattia: RUN BITCH RUN

mattia dumbass makes me laugh and i fall down then dejuane picks me up and throws me over his shoulder so i start kicking my legs while he walks up the stairs with me

Y: HELP YOU DUMB BITCHES
Jale: DONT BE TOO LOUD
Kairi: AT LEAST MAKE SURE SHE CAN WALK AFTER PLEASE AND THANK YOU
Y: OH MY GOSH I HOPE YALL KNOW I REALLY FUCKING HATE YALL
Melissa: WE LOVE YOU TOO GIRLY HAVE FUN

as we make it to the top of the stairs i continue kicking and trying to get down the dejuane hits my butt and i cover it with my hand and yell then once we make it to my room he locks the door and throws me back on the bed then he gets naked again and comes back towards me

Y: dejuane i'll kick you in the balls i swear
Dejuane: no you won't
Y: don't tempt me
Dejuane: do it then

i lift my foot but then i change my mind and then dejuane smirks and hovers over me so i suck in my lips so he can't kiss me but he gives me kisses all over my face instead then i give in and kiss him and by now my hand is on the back of his head and we're making out then one thing leads to another and i wake thinking it was a dream but i look next to me and see dejuane and it makes me laugh thinking about yesterday then a few minutes later dejuane wakes up and looks at me and smiles

Y: i fucking hate you
Dejuane: you love me
Y: no i really don't
Dejuane: yes you really do
Y: if that's what helps you sleep at night then go for it
Dejuane: actually you helped me sleep last night
Y: chile let me go back to sleep
Dejuane: i can help you
Y: um no
Dejuane: anyways babe i'm about to shower
Y: we not together
Dejuane: are you kidding me so last night meant nothing
Y: it meant everything but that doesn't mean i'm going to take you back that easy
Dejuane: so if i went and slept with someone else it wouldn't matter
Y: well it would be hurting me but i guess not because we're not together
Dejuane: k

with that dejuane got up and i watched as he got dressed then he walked out the door and i just sat there zoning out for what felt like forever until someone taps my shoulder and i jump a little then i turn and see gabby

Y: huh
Gabby: i saw dejuane leave so i just wanted to check on you
Y: oh i'm fine

gabby then wipes my face and shows me the tears i didn't even know i had

Gabby: what happened
Y: just shit
Gabby: what shit
Y: well dejuane thought since we you know then we were back together
Gabby: so last night was meaningless
Y: there's never a meaningless time with dejuane that's the point
Gabby: why didn't you tell him
Y: i did ass face
Gabby: and what happened
Y: dumba- well obviously he fucking left after telling me he's gonna sleep with someone else
Gabby: so what are you going to do if he does
Y: well if he does then that's on him all he's doing is ruining his chances with me
Gabby: periodt ma'am

after talking to gabby for longer i get dressed then we walk downstairs and sit on the couch and i sit criss cross applesauce 💀 just listening to what they were saying then dejuane comes through the door with davine and i bust out laughing

Dejuane: what's so funny
Y: that's a downgrade and you know it, i'm a little offended that that's who you are trying to make me jealous with like damn you couldn't do any better
Dejuane: so you can wouldn't be mad if we did anything
Y: no because sweetie at the end of the day i know i'm still your best
Sharan: PERIODT QUEEN
Mattia: DID SHE STUDDER
Kairi: FUCK NO
Y: hahaha i hate you guys but fr tho you could've at least picked a girl that doesn't have a child
Dejuane: you have 2
Y: that are at least yours dumbass
Davine: girl i'm still fine
Y: ........
Melissa: ........
Jale: .........
Sharan: who gone tell her
Angel: shit me, um bitch you is ugly as fuck
Y: HAHAHAHA BITCH YOU PETTY
Jale: I CANT STAND YOU BITCH

we kept bashing dejuane and davine and making fun of them then when i got tired even though it was still morning i went upstairs to take a nap and dejuane tried to come in my room with me but i closed the door in his face and locked it then i went on my bed and fell asleep

i don't wanna go to school tomorrow 😔 also the reason i said 2 is because tatyana got custody of the kids again i just didn't feel like putting it in 😭