Why am I never enough??

part 38

i woke up to myself throwing up, this time i did it silently because i didn't wanna wake dejuane up once i finished i flushed the toilet then went in the kitchen and got some water then sat on the couch just commenting under tiktok posts that supporters tagged me in then i got bored so i went back in the room and fell asleep

when i woke up i noticed dejuane wasn't in the room no where so i walked out and everyone was dressed and dejuane was guess what shit faced drunk
Y: wth what happened
Ta: you've been sleep for a whole day
Y: why would y'all let me sleep a whole day?!?
Ta: that's besides the point anyways you were sleep for a whole day so we decided to go to a party then i guess dejuane was a little stressed over you being pregnant so he drunk a lot
Y: i do not feel like doing this tonight
Ta: i'll help
Y: no offense but since he lost his virginity to you the answer is hell no
i go and get dejuane and make him walk himself ofc then he bumps into me and i almost fall but mike catches me so i get back up and walk dejuane into the room then i shower with him and wash his hair and get him and myself dressed then i brush mine and his teeth then put dejuane in bed then me all while thinking "how am i pregnant but taking care of his ass" then i pulled out my phone seeing supporters texting me about the pregnancy so i answer them then i like and repost some edits they made then put my phone on dnd and watch F is for Family while writing down baby names that i think are cute, then i write down what i need for the baby then someone calls my phone
Y: hello?
Doc: um this is your doctor reminding you your appointment to find out your gender or your baby is tomorrow
Y: oh i totally forgot what time is that??
Doc: it's at 2:00pm
Y: ok i'll be there thank you
i hung up then thought to myself "great now i'll be going to the doctor with a half drunk boyfriend" i wasn't tired and it was already around 2:00am so i decided to go in the nursery, once i got to the room i get in the carriage and sit down lifting up my shirt and "talking" to the baby about how they are going to be doing good things in the world rather i'm around to see it or not then Mike walks in and sits inside the carriage with me
M: what you doing
Y: well you're nosey ash so i think you know what i'm doing
M: true i was listening
Y: ofc anyways is there anything you wanna say
M: ofc
mike starts saying some sweet stuff then some bullshit about how he better be the favorite or he's gonna stuff the kid back in me so i slap his head then i get tired so i force mike to sleep in the carriage with me

once i wake up it's 12:50pm so now i'm rushing trying to get out the carriage but i can't so i sit down crying then kobe comes and helps me out
K: now stop crying big baby
Y: no because i was stuck
K: well you're out now everything is ok
Y: ok
i walk off and shower then slap dejuane awake so he can get dressed then once we're both ready he grabs his keys but i snatch them from him because i'm not trying to die then we get in the the car and drive off

De: why you take the keys
Y: no real question is why go get shit faced drunk because you're stressed instead of talking to me
De: because you're pregnant and i don't want to bother you
Y: ok but we're in this together, i didn't get myself pregnant
De: ok i'll talk to you next time
Y: do you promise
De: yes i promise
Y: if you're lying i'll suffocate you in your sleep
De: i'm serious i will
we kept talking then my phone went off and it was my mom so i put my phone down, put it on speaker and focused back on the road
Y: yes ma'am
De: when she's respectful 🥵
Y: shut up, anyways yes ma'am
Y/m: me and your dad wanted to know if you wanted to go out to eat somewhere
Y: i feel like i'm being set up, what are we gonna talk about exactly
Y/m: you'll figure out but make sure dejuane comes
Y: um ok
once i say this we pull up to the doctor office
Y: but ok we'll be there but i gotta go i love you
Y/m: i love you too and make sure to be here tonight by 10:00pm at (random restaurant)
Y: alright
i hang up then me and dejuane walk into the clinic and wait for the doctor to call our name
Receptionist: Mr and Mrs Thomas
Y: oh we're not m-
De: here we are
Receptionist: y'all can go to room 202
De: ok thank you
we start walking to the room
Y: why you cut me off
De: because Y/n Thomas has a ring to it
Y: you know what doesn't have a ring, me
De: oh damn, might have to change that
Y: so what names you think of
De: dont change the subject
Y: well if you want to then do it
De: ok ok
we get in the room and wait for the lady to come in once she does she tells me to lift my shirt so i do then she puts gel on my belly which was cold asf then she put this thing on and we saw the baby

Y: awwww omg it's so tiny
De: it's adorable
Doc: would y'all like to know the gender
Y: yes
De: you don't want gender reveal
Y: no we can just have a baby shower because my curiosity is killing me
Doc: ok well y'all are having a.......

almost

bruh you are so close

don't give up now

SIKE 😭