Why am I never enough??

part 149

after the beach we went home and everyone came to my room and sat down on my bed and we watched movies and i was feeling fine until we watched a romcom and a part came on that reminded me of dejuane and i started crying again so i got up and got a box of tissues and by the time the movie was over i had used all of the tissues in the box and i ate majority of the snacks when i was crying after a while the girls went to go to sleep so it was just me and the boys along with the kids then mattia and kairi took the kids to a separate room with them and went to sleep so now it was me, kobe, alejandro and robert then robert, derek, mike and vallyk went with mattia and kairi and alejandro said he was sleeping with me and kobe so he got under the cover with us and while he was sleep i was trying to sleep also until kobe started kissing my tears and he kissed every single one until they were all gone then he kept kissing me over and over until i pushed his face

Y: i'm trying to sleep
Kobe: and i'm trying to have fun
Y: i don't care alejandro is in here and that weird so i'm going to sleep and you can do whatever you want

i went to sleep leaving kobe awake and after hours i woke up again and kobe was still awake just looking at me and shaking me awake and i look and see alejandro isn't in bed but i keep my eyes closed until kobe starts jumping up and down so i get up and look at my phone and it's 4:30am

Y: KOBE leave me the fuck alone i'm tired ash
Kobe: well then let me help you sleep
Y: i was already sleep dumb ass now leave me alone so i can go back to it
Kobe: come on

i roll my eyes and grab my blanket then walk downstairs and lay on the couch falling asleep and once i woke up the sun was shining in my eyes so i got up rubbing my eyes then going upstairs and showering and washing my face then i wrapped my towel around me and went and sat on my bed cleaning my ears with q-tips then kobe comes up to me and starts dancing and singing

Y: kobe i'm not about to play with you leave me alone
Kobe: you know you want it
Y: if i give in will you leave me alone
Kobe: maybe for an hour or two
Y: omg fine

after i give in then hours later i get up and shower again then i get dressed and i walk downstairs and sit on the couch

Kairi: why you walking like that
Y: like what
Angel: like your legs are about to give out
Y: because i'm tired
Jale: let me find out something going on between you and kobe
Y: nothing is so you won't find anything out
Melissa: good because i like kobe
Y: sis you gone be heart broken as fuck
Melissa: why's that
Y: um nothing you'll figure out though

as i was talking kobe came downstairs and sat next to me with his hand on my thigh squeezing it and i smacked his hand but he kept putting it back so i slapped him upside the head then he put his hand around my neck so i rolled my eyes to the back of my head then i laughed when i looked back at him

Kobe: freaky ass
Y: should've never done it
Kairi: y'all always be whispering shit
Y: um because it's a A and B conversation so C your way out of it
Kairi: my best friend fake
Y: because i didn't let you in my conversation??
Kairi: yea
Y: you're just a crybaby
Kobe: so are you y/n
Y: suck my tit bitch
Kobe: i already did
Kairi: BRUH I KNEW IT
Mattia: wait who did i have that bet with because they owe me $20
Y: y'all better on me and kobe's business
Mattia: duh mother fucker now i have $20
Y: i hate y'all
Melissa: why didn't you say that instead of saying i was going to be heart broken
Y: because i didn't expect kobe to say shit out loud but now you know
Sharan: how long has this been going on
Kobe: since dejuane first told her he couldn't talk to her no more she came in my room drunk late as fuck
Y: alright let's change the subject
Derek: no keep talking this is interesting
Vallyk: fr tho because i shipped y'all for the longest
Mike: i swear
Y: y'all haven't talked until now with your nosey asses
Vallyk: exactly we collecting information
Y: for what
Vallyk: um so i can tell my supporters
Y: see bitch you messy
Vallyk: and is so who wanna fight
Y: wait till i feel like myself again and i'm gonna drown your ass in the pool bitch
Vallyk: i'll be waiting
Y: ok you do that
Kobe: well since they know then we don't have to keep it on the low
Y: first stop trying to rhyme you have no bars and second leave me alone pervert
Robert: somebody take that word from her
Angel: ong sis be calling everyone a pervert
Y: because that's what everyone is in my eyes
Kairi: even me
Y: well everyone beside kairi, and mattia and alejandro
Sharan: well fuck you
Kobe: well that means you're a weirdo for fucking a pervert
Y: i am so close to killing you right now
Jale: so do you feel better
Y: definitely a lot better than yesterday that's for sure i really think i just needed to be back home and around people who truly cared about me you know
Mike: who even planned that dumb ass trip
Y: i honestly don't know but i believe it was haihai or someone like that
Melissa: if i knew she planned it i wouldn't have gone we all know that bitch messy as fuck
Y: i ain't going on no vacations for a while
Kobe: let the choir say amen
Everyone: AMEN

we all started laughing then we got some snacks and sat on the couch watching movies and eating with blankets on everyone and close to the end of the night the kids were upstairs sleep and everyone was doing there own thing in the living room like me and kobe were eating and watching tv and melissa and mattia were braiding each other's hair and kairi and gabby were doing face masks and robert and jale were whispering and alejandro and angel were playing while sharan was on ft with her boyfriend that lived in north carolina and derek, mike and vallyk were annoying everyone and making tiktoks

2 chapters during school 🤭 i'm on a roll also i promise they'll get back together i swear to God they will just be patient 😌