Why am I never enough??

part 198

a few hours past and y/n woke up about to get up and ready to face reality but she felt someone tighten around her and a bit of relief washed over her knowing dejuane didn't leave out so she laid there getting on her phone and making videos of dejuane sleep then as she was drifting in and out of sleep she saw a flame so she jumped up seeing corey with a flame hovering under her scrapbook so she quickly put on some shorts and dejuanes shirt and ran in front of him

Y: what are you doing
Corey: if you want dejuane then that's fine but all these memories are going away
Y: please don't do that i have thousands of pictures of the kids, me, old and new friends, family all of that
Corey: pick dejuane or the pictures
Y: stop corey please don't do that i'm begging you i'll never be able to get those memories back please stop

by now everyone was upstairs watching what was happening but dejuane was still sleep so kairi rolled his eyes and slapped his forehead and when he sprung up he pointed to y/n and corey and dejuane went and stood next to y/n putting his hand on her shoulder and putting her behind him

Dejuane: come on dude are you really about to throw away all those memories she has just for some jealous bullshit
Corey: you have no say in this
Dejuane: burning the memories aren't going to help it's just gonna hurt y/n and if that's what you wanna do then why even say you love or loved her
Corey: i do love her
Y: if you love me then stop because all your doing is fucking up even more
Corey: then come back to me
Y: no corey now give me my book
Corey: then say good bye to all these memories
Y: corey please if you love me or even care bout me in the slightest way then you wouldn't want to see me hurt you wouldn't even think about hurting me if anything you would want to fill more spaces in my book with me so why burn every ounce of memory i have of any event i have pictures of me and you in there i never took them out so if you burn it then you're burning everything i mean all of it

corey looked at me and he lowered the lighter and tossed me my book and i sat on the bed hugging it to my chest and as the boys made him leave the girls surrounded me and we sat on the bed looking through the pictures then later the kids walked in and they were talking to me asking what happened but i didn't want to tell them so i just said corey wanted to take a picture and then being naive and clueless children they shrugged it off and i put them under my cover and soon the girls walked off going back in their rooms then dejuane came upstairs laying on my chest while we finished looking through pictures

Dejuane: are you ok
Y: i guess this shit is getting to me so much to the point where i feel sick
Dejuane: is that normal
Y: i don't know it hasn't happened to me before
Dejuane: maybe you have a cold
Y: probably my ass never stays inside
Dejuane: exactly
Y: for real though massage my stomach i feel sick
Dejuane: sure lay down

y/n laid down on her back while dejuane massaged her stomach gently and soon she was sleep so dejuane put the cover over her then he locked the door not wanting someone else to come in and do some more dumb shit then he laid down with his face shoved in the pillow but not too long after y/n jumped up running to the bathroom so he got up scared to death and went to the bathroom with her seeing her looking for something

Dejuane: the hell you doing
Y: i don't know i just had a dream that i lost something and it was in the bathroom
Dejuane: so you had to run to get it you scared the fuck out of me
Y: yes because i don't want to forget
Dejuane: dear Lord
Y: i found it
Dejuane: what is it
Y: it's azlynns ultrasound picture
Dejuane: where's the box of all those pictures i gave you
Y: in the closet why
Dejuane: go put that one in there

i went to the closet opening the box and as the folds with the pictures fell down i put the picture where i thought it looked best at then i just sat there looking at the box until dejuane sat behind me and picked me up sitting me on his lap so i leaned back still looking at the pictures

Dejuane: you know one day we'll fill it with even more
Y: i can't wait
Dejuane: neither can i now come on let's go to sleep without interruptions
Y: for real i'm tired
Dejuane: would've been nice if you didn't jump out your sleep scaring me shitless
Y: sorry it is what it is but your massaging my stomach again
Dejuane: you still feel sick
Y: yea might be food poisoning you know the girls did help me make the food
Dejuane: that would actually explain a lot because they can't cool worth shit
Y: exactly now come on mr mccoy i'm tired
Dejuane: alright

i stood up going on the bed with dejuane and we fell back asleep this time no noise or interruptions just peaceful sleeping

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