Why am I never enough??

part 175

a week later y/n woke up and she just brushed her teeth and walked downstairs going into the kitchen and grabbing a bag of grapes and sitting down on the chair looking at the table the whole time while kairi talked to her and she responded whenever he wasn't giving her lectures just about any random thing even though y/n is feeling a little better about the situation she's still mad at the fact he chose her but ever since that day lucianna never misses to rub their relationship in her face which has been pissing her off and y/n has been trying not to fight lucianna because she doesn't want it to seem as though she's just a jealous toxic ex so she's been letting it slide kairi, mattia, alejandro, robert, derek, mike, vallyk, kobe, and the girls haven't been talking to dejuane or lucianna and y/n doesn't either but yesterday for the first time in forever y/n decided to let the kids stay at her dads house since he's been showing a lot of improvement and he's even moved on and found a really pretty and nice lady who's a year younger than him but anyways today was a pretty normal day not much was happening besides the group talking and playing around until the old group came and y/n talked to them and after a few hours of playing and swimming there was a knock on the door and once cherry opened it in came dejuane and lucianna holding hands so y/n grabbed her clothes and went upstairs to shower then once she was dressed along with everyone else she came back downstairs sitting on the couch and watching anime

Cherry: hey juane
Dejuane: her cherry what y'all been up to
Cherry: nun much we got over here a few hours ago
Dejuane: why y'all ain't tell me
Cherry: we didn't know if they wanted y'all here
Dejuane: awe i understand
Andre: they still giving you the silent treatment
Dejuane: yup
Andre: damn that's been going on for a week now
Dejuane: mane it's fine i don't care but where the kids at
Cherry: y/n said she took them to her dads house
Dejuane: her dad house?! why would she do that i don't trust him
Andre: well it's her decision where they go
Dejuane: nah they my kids too and if i don't trust him then she needs to go get them right now

y/n was starting to get pissed off because dejuane was just constantly talking shit about them being over there but she kept her calm while he kept going about how if she wasn't going to get them then she needed to give him the address so he could but y/n sat there still not talking because she wasn't giving him the address when those are his grandkids so he can see them when he wants then dejuane started talking about how irresponsible and immature she was

Y: omg do you ever shut the fuck up
Kairi: for real all you do is talk shit
Dejuane: looks who's finally talking
Y: yea we're talking because you won't shut the fuck up for two seconds you've been here for not even 15 minutes and you're already trying to start shit with me
Dejuane: how all because i'm saying i don't trust your dad with our kids
Y: i don't care who you don't trust at the end of the day i'm their mom and i decide who house they can go to and they love being around my dad
Dejuane: i'm their dad so i can decide where they go too
Y: oh shut up i've raised them damn near by myself once before so i can do it again
Dejuane: you swear i don't be with them enough then when i am you throw shit like that in my face
Y: kairis there more than you are what are you talking about
Dejuane: i don't care y/n you are just trying to argue about random crap so you don't have to face why you're really mad
Y: why am i really mad dejuane
Dejuane: because i moved on with lucianna and you can't stand that
Y: oh you're so smart
Dejuane: i don't see why you're so mad though
Y: i'm not mad you are with her because you can be with whoever you want to i'm mad that after all the shit you put me through you still managed to pick her over me
Dejuane: so you're mad i'm dating her
Y: no because you could've chose me to still be your best friend and in your life but you just flat out chose lucianna did you not think i was going to be hurt
Dejuane: if you wanted to best friends you could've said that
Y: why should i have to you do this every time dejuane you get close to me again and play with my emotions then you go back to one of your ex's it's always the same shit with you and i'm tired of it it's annoying
Dejuane: if you wanted me then you should act like it
Y: well damn now you know how i feel every time we broke up and you blew my fucking phone up telling me you still wanted me
Dejuane: omg you've act like i just done terrible shit to you
Y: my bad it's not like you cheated on me whenever we were together from when i was 16 to now it's not like you haven't hit me or cheated on me when we were married or almost got another girl pregnant or threatened me and lied on my name to try and win me back my bad you haven't done anything wrong dejuane because in your eyes you're the perfect little angel
Dejuane: all you do is bring up the past
Y: because with you the past always repeats so it might as damn well be the future
Dejuane: so you're jealous
Y: no i'm not jealous dumb ass i'm mad that after everything you put me through every time you managed to have me replaced with someone else but if that's what you want to do then do it because "as long as you're happy i'm happy" right or is it "for better or for worse"

after y/n said that last line it shocked kairi and the others because that was a part of dejuanes wedding vow that he told y/n but after she said that dejuane got up with lucianna and walked out while y/n kept looking at the tv screen and after everyone stopped looking at her they looked at the tv too

i took a fat ass nap yea 😌