Why am I never enough??

part 30

i woke up and dejuane is still sleep so i get up and go shower when i come out i wake him up make him go take a shower then we go downstairs and ofc davine is there, i cook everyone food besides davine
Da: where's my food
Y: on your mind
De: that's mess up
Y: tuff
dejuane gave her his food which pissed me off
Y: bro y'all seem hella close for people who met 3 days ago
De: what so now you think i'm cheating
Y: well if the shoe fits put that bitch on
Da: girl stfu
Y: you know what, if i could  kill i would but since i can't imma just keep quite
De: no you wouldn't
Y: actually yes, yes i would
K: it's ok y/n just calm down
Y: kobe stfu you know i hate when people tell me that
K: my bad
M: you on your period?
Y: you know what
i get up and go upstairs to get my jacket and my keys once i get them i go back downstairs
Y: bye
M: wait where you going
i don't answer i just walk out the door and go across the street to get kairi then we go back to my dad house and ayaina and hailey are there so we chill and talk for a few hours until me and kai get bored so i drop him off at his house and i go back to mine and when i come in the group is playing twister i just look at them and walk upstairs to my room and shower and do my night routine then i sit down on the bed and watch Netflix as i'm watching tiktoks on youtube someone comes in the room, it's Vallyk
V: you good??
Y: yea i'm fine why
V: just asking you left this morning and didn't come back for hours
Y: well
V: do you wanna play with us
Y: nah i'm good imma just go to sleep thank you tho
V: no problem goodnight love you
Y: goodnight love you too
and like that i went to sleep, i was sleeping hella good and i MEAN GOOD BRO like that sleep when you don't have a care in the world and you feel like you could sleep for hours, yea that type of sleep

                                    ~2 days later~
today was the day me, kairi and mattia had to go so i kiss dejuane goodbye and i hug everyone else then we get in my car and drive to the airport
Y: bro it just feels so real now
K: fr it's just now hitting me that this is actually happening
M: i'm nervous
Y: exactly what if they don't like us
K: ok ok let's just try to think positive
M: we should go to a store up there and get matching outfits so they know we're all together
Y: ok let's do that first then
we keep talking about how nervous we are until we're at the airport then we grab our suitcases out the car and walk inside, we see a few supporters so we take pictures with them and make tiktoks then our flight is called so we get on it and i just look thru my camera roll seeing so many memories which made me happy then i turned my phone off and just stared out the window for the rest of the ride, once i wake up we got a few more hours so me and mattia play among us then kairi decides to join us we play that for so long that by the time we got bored with it we were already landing
Y: here goes nothing
M: yup
K: we got this
we got off and got our luggage then headed in an uber to a store to get our outfits, it was about 8:00am when we go to the store we go in and walk around looking we found some cute ones but we were still debating if those were the right ones we wanted

^^this is the outfit i got
and they got a neon shirt and blue jeans as well, we got changed in my car then we drove to Funnymike (aka mac) house, it was now 9:00am when we reached his house we got out the car scared ash then me and mattia made kairi knock while we stood behind him, once he knocked we heard yelling and that's how we knew everyone was awake then the door opened and Mac had a camera in our faces
Mac: what's up guys today we got y/n, kairi and mattia to come out and be in the video!!!!
we stood there nervous and waved at the camera then walked inside and all the bad kids were just looking at us the first person i noticed was Jay because he was staring hard ash then i noticed DeeDee then Mark then Bam then Jatoric and the others
Mac: alright even though i said y'all names introduce yourselves
i nudged mattia to go first so he started
M: um im Mattia Polibio
Mac: how many followers you got on your socials
M: i have 5.6 million in tiktok and 1.3 million on instagram
Mac: ok ok you next
he says pointing directly at kairi
K: oh i'm Kairi Cosentino i have 2 million followers on tiktok and 740k on instagram
Mac: last but not least you
he says obviously pointing at me
Y: i'm y/n and i have 3 million on tiktok and 2.5 million on instagram
Mac: ok ok so gang this is everyone that we got to pull up today and today we are going kayaking so stay tuned for that ON GANG
and with that he stopped recording and started having a conversation with us telling us how we gotta be hyped up and he just talked to us for an hour which made us way more comfortable then we went and put on some clothes to go kayaking in i just put on a tank top and shorts and the boys did the same then he started recording
Mac: alright guys everyone is dressed and ready to go so we are now on our way to the place are y'all excited
he says putting the camera in mine, kairi and mattia face so ofc we had to yell
Y,K,&M: YESSSSSSS
Mac: oh wow i might have to trade out the kids for y'all
Jay: nah nah
Y: yessir
we all kept talking and playing until we got to the place i was with mattia and kairi we were peddling until kai thought he saw sum in the water and started freaking out making us tip over so i swam to him and hit him upside the head then we flipped our boat back over and got back in the boat we kayaked for 2 hours then we got back in his van and went home and played around and played games and ate it was now 9:00pm so me and the boys left to go get a hotel room, Mac offered to let us stay but we didn't want to get pranked awake so we decided to get a hotel anyway we all went in and showered separately then got in the same bed watching nick at night
Y: today was really fun
K: fr i thought it was gonna be scary but i enjoyed it a lot
M: sucks that the day after tomorrow we go home
Y: fr but we can always come back
M: true
we just talked about the day until we fell asleep

yurrr