Why am I never enough??

part 65

                                 ~5 months later~

the twins are now one years old, we had a big party for them but tatyana didn't show up but that didn't matter because they had everyone else and even some friends they met as for dj he is now 9 months old, he started walking around 2 weeks ago and everyone is still together even me and dejuane but i'd be lying if i said there hasn't been a few problems like for example the boys will leave in the morning and come back at night drunk so we would make them sleep in the game room, and dejuane got into a fight with a group of guys because they threatened me then the day after they did i got into a crash because sum car purposely smashed into me so lately he's been really attached to me which i would be lying if i said i didn't enjoy but i hate seeing him so stressed over what someone else did but i appreciate it, other than that everything is just right but for today we all planned to just sit around and chill which we did then while they did that i brought my laptop in the living room looking at wedding venues and dresses while hailey helped me and dejuane kept trying to take sneak peaks so i would constantly have to push his head away then once i found the perfect one and the perfect venue i show hailey and she agreed so i ordered it and rented out the venue for the day we scheduled the wedding then i think of a place me and the group can go the day before the wedding and after that there wasn't much left to do besides finding a mixologist and a caterer and figure out my bridesmaid and my maid of honor and a bakery to make the cake then i need a place for the reception and after that everything will be finished i think i already knew my flower girls will be azlynn and blessing, and i plan on making kj my ring barrier, i also plan on putting a candy bar and inviting about 70 to 100 people and i want it summer themed because i met dejuane in the summer so i wanted roses to be the flowers that azlynn and blessing threw but as i was thinking of plans hailey snapped me out of my thoughts

Hailey: Y/N
Y: oh sorry huh
Hailey: dejuane said he's about to go to sleep
Y: oh shit ok then, can you put the kids to sleep for me
Hailey: yea i got you

me and dejuane started this thing where if one of us was about to go to sleep the other would do the same as well so we know where each other are, then i get up and walk in the room and dejuane is laying down watching tv so i get under the cover with him and wrap around his waist and turn my head around so i can see the tv also

Dejuane: baby are you actually tired??
Y: not really but if you are then i guess i am too
Dejuane: you don't have to go to sleep but please stay
Y: dejuane we've been doing this for 5 months i'm not going anywhere
Dejuane: do you promise when i wake up you'll be right here
Y: i promise dejuane i'll always be right here for as long as you want
Dejuane: thank you

dejuane starts rubbing my head going down to my back and sooner or later he fell asleep with his arms wrapped around my back so i caressed his arm until i eventually got tired so i turned the tv off and fell asleep

once i woke up dejuane was still sleep but i remained in the same spot because last time i moved he had a panic attack which made me cry extremely hard since i was the reason why, so i stayed like that for nearly 5 hours until dejuane woke up

Dejuane: you kept your promise
Y: yup like every night
Dejuane: thank you
Y: anytime i love you
Dejuane: i love you too

then he me a kiss then i showered with him like i've been doing for the last 5 months then after that we both woke the kids up bathed them got them dressed then fed them so basically everywhere i went dejuane went which believe it or not i didn't mind after we fed them we put them in the car and we drove to go get food for me and dejuane then we went to the mall and there was a photo booth so me and dejuane took pictures by ourselves then we took some with the kids (when i say the kids i also mean blessing and kj btw) then we went inside and we didn't really buy anything besides a matching chain for me and dejuane then we got all the kids a toy then the rest of the time we just walked around and talked then around 8:30pm we got back in the car and drive back to the house going in and putting the kids to sleep then going to sleep ourselves with me laying on dejuane as usual

yup i ship it 🚢