Why am I never enough??

part 137

y/n woke up and got dressed along with the kids then they got in the car and drove to dejuanes rehab center and they walked in once they got checked in and got permission they started walking to dejuanes room and the kids ran to him sitting on his bed while y/n just leaned on the doorway watching him talk and play with them for hours then once it was time to go azlynn went and hugged y/ns leg and dj sat on the bed crying and holding on to dejuane because he didn't want to leave

Y: come on dj you can't stay
Dj: i don't wanna go!!!!!
Y: stop yelling you don't have a choice come on
Dejuane: you'll be back soon dj i'm pretty sure mom will let you come tomorrow
Y: yea maybe
Dj: she's lying
Y: omg fine we'll come tomorrow now come on and stop crying dj you're causing a scene
Dejuane: thank you for bringing them
Y: well you said you needed them to help you get through this so i'm just helping you out
Dejuane: well thank you
Y: no problem we'll see you tomorrow
Dejuane: can i have a hug
Y: not if you smell like a hospital
Dejuane: shut the fuck up and come here
Y: stop playing with me before i leave
Dejuane: fine

dejuane turned around like a big ass child so y/n huffed then she went over to him and waited until he turned around and once he did she opened her arms and he hugged nearly squeezing her to death

Y: got damn let go
Dejuane: my bad
Y: alright i'll see you tomorrow or just call if things get rough
Dejuane: ok bye azlynn bye dj i love y'all
Azlynn: love you too
Dj: i'm gonna miss you
Y: shut up big baby we'll be back tomorrow
Dejuane: bye y/n i sorta love you
Y: bye dejuane i guess i love you too

y/n laughed then the kids and y/n waved bye at dejuane and they walked out the room and going into the car and driving off listening to dj cry about dejuane the whole time so once they got to the house y/n threw her head back on her seat then she got out and unbuckled the kids and since dj was still crying she carried him inside while azlynn walked then gabby opened the door for them and y/n sat dj on the couch while he continued kicking and screaming

Y: dj stop this is getting ridiculous your dad needs to be there that's why he's there and me and azlynn miss him just as much as you do but you aren't making it any better with your yelling and kicking it's actually making everything worse i understand you might miss him but do you really think crying and screaming in front of him is gonna make it any easier on him you can't do that in front of him even when you really want to and you sure aren't making this easier on me so stop the crying because you are just going to give yourself and everyone around you a headache and i literally said before we left that you can see him tomorrow but if you don't stop i'll make you stay here with uncle mattia, robert and kairi instead
Mattia: back talk......it's quiet ain't no back talk

while y/n was making food for the house across town the group was sitting in the living room talking to each other

Kobe: i like her still but what if i tell her and she gets mad at me or something and i doubt she even feels the same
Derek: well why don't you tell her how you feel instead of telling us
Mike: exactly y'all use to be really close so just tell her how you feel idiot
Kobe: what if she still likes dejuane
Vallyk: i doubt it or they would be together so stop being a pussy and tell her
Avani: when i first met you kobe you were one of the biggest hoes i know and now you're scared of telling y/n aka your ex best friend that you like her
Manolo: exactly like just tell her
Kobe: i can't
Cherry: what if a month or two from now we all go on a trip and you ask her then
Kobe: but dejuane will be out of rehab by then
Cherry: exactly because if you can get over the fact of y/n talking to dejuane then you can easily tell her how you feel about her
Kobe: i'll try but i don't know

kobe continues talking to the group until there was a knock on the door so dixie goes and answers it

Y: hey y'all
Cherry: oop
Y: what
Larray: what are you doing here
Y: well damn i missed y'all too
Larray: we missed you we just didn't expect you to be here
Y: i said i'd come visit
Haihai: well since you're here kobe needs to tell you something
Y: ok
Kobe: no i don't haihai shut the fuck up
Y: damn kobe you good
Kobe: yea i'm fine

y/n shrugs and then goes and sit next to kobe just talking to him with her legs on his lap and haihai keeps making kissing noises and y/n just looks at her confused then after a while y/n hugs kobe, mike, vallyk, and derek then she gets in her car and goes back home

Haihai: bro that was the perfect time to tell her
Kobe: haihai you're not fucking helping i'll tell her on my own time but you rushing me isn't going to help
Mike: fr tho you were doing too much
Haihai: tell her before one of us slip up and accidentally say it then you're definitely going to be mad
Kobe: no just shut up

kobe walks upstairs to his room and closes his door then he lays on the bed and calls y/n and once she answers they started talking and laughing then kobe fell asleep on the phone with y/n while the whole time he hasn't told her how he felt

i went to school looking like a complete bum today 😭💙