Why am I never enough??

part 39

(i just like the song das it)

Doc: you're having a girl!!!
Y: omg yay!!!
De: i wanted a boy but im still happy!!!
Y: omg it all feels so real now
De: fr tho
Doc: ok i'll be back with some pictures of your ultrasound
Y: ok thank you
me and dejuane talked and kissed then talked about baby names until the doctor came back with the pictures and removed the gel off my belly and let us we can go, we got home and showed everyone the pictures and told them the gender then we went in the room and watched movies and slept then around 8:00pm we got dressed then sat on the bed for about 30 more
minutes then we headed to the spot and waited outside until my parents got there
Y: i'm nervous
De: why
Y: because i feel like they're setting us up
De: well we're about to figure out
dejuane says pointing at my parents in two different cars pulling up, we get out of the car and hug then walk in the restaurant, and eat and talk until we're all finished
Y: ok so what's the real reason we are here
Dad: well we were thinking.....
Y: thinking what dad
Dad: that you should go back home with your mom
Y: wait what
Dad: this place is not where you belong, because you are 17 just graduated a few days ago and now pregnant with a guy that has cheated on you 3 times already
Y: ok but what does that have to do with y'all
Mom: we just feel that you're not responsible enough to be on your own because you're already pregnant
Y: i knew this was gonna be some fuck shit
De: wait wait i love y/n, yea i hurt her a few times and i apologize for that but i can never take it back but it's in the past so let it stay there
Dad: if you loved my daughter you wouldn't cheat on her and it wouldn't be in the past if you actually cared about her
dejuane got up and walked off and i was getting stressed so i started crying a little
Mom: alright so when you get home pack your bags
Y: no
Mom: what??
Y: NO mom damn it what the fuck i'm not going home with you and i never will i'm in love with dejuane and i don't fucking care if he cheated on me 3 times shit i wouldn't care if it was 20 times, love is a fucked up thing and sometimes you just got to roll with that, it's my choice to get pregnant it's my choice to decide who it's with and i made the choice to get pregnant and for it to be with dejuane, i'm not a fucking child i can fuck who i want to when i want and dejuane is that person, you can't make me go anywhere i don't want to i'm doing perfectly fine with the people i live with and i'll be damned if a mom that couldn't even keep her family together will have a say so in wether mine stays together, dejuane will forever be mine wether he decides to be with me or someone else and that's the real definition of love something you apparently don't know about so please if you have a problem with dejuane then just leave me alone and just get out of my life BECAUSE NO ONE WILL TELL ME WHO TO LOVE AND NO ONE IS GONNA DISRESPECT DEJUANE
i get up and grab my purse and walk out and i see dejuane sitting down on the grass
De: maybe we should break up
Y: NO IM NOT BREAKING UP WITH YOU OVER WHAT SOMEONE ELSE HAS TO SAY ABOUT US
De: but if your parents don't like me then it makes no sense
Y: MAYBE YOU ARE JUST TRYING TO FIND A REASON TO LEAVE ME AND IF THATS WHAT YOU WANT THEN LEAVE BECAUSE IM TIRED OF BEGGING YOU TO STAY IM TIRED OF EVERYTIME SOMEONE HAS SOMETHING TO SAY ABOUT US YOU LET IT GET TO YOU
De: i'm not trying to find a reason to leave
Y: THEN WHY ARE YOU TRYING TO LEAVE ME
De: i'm not but your parents don't even like me
Y: AND SO WHAT THE FUCK DO YOU WANT ME TO DO BEG THEM TO LIKE YOU OR BEG YOU TO STAY I LOVE YOU TO DEATH BUT WHAT DO YOU WANT WHAT DO YOU THINK IS BEST FOR US
De: i think it's best for us to break up at least for now
Y: ofc you do because that's all you ever wanted
i walk off trying to calm down because stress isn't good for the baby, i ended up waking home and everyone was in the living room
M: why would you walk home
Y: because i was stressed and everytime something happens between me and dejuane he leaves and i'm so tired of it
M: then slide over here
Y: i'm not in the mood to play leave me alone
Dad: so are you going home with your mom
Y: dad i love you but shut the fuck up i'm not going home
Ma: well damn
Mom: don't talk to him like that
Y: mom you can also shut the fuck up, y'all are the reason that i lost him AGAIN, i finally felt like everything was falling in place then y'all come and fuck everything up because y'all can't mind your fucking business, y'all didn't have a good relationship so i guess since i'm your child i'm not supposed to have one either
then i point at dejuane
Y: and you let them do it every fucking time and i wouldn't be surprised if you moved on because that's what your best at, the best day of my life was today because i got to be with the love of my life and seeing my precious baby girl for the first time but i guess that only mattered to me because somehow the people that helped make the day amazing also fucked it up how ironic
De: y/n i'm sorry
Y: yea i've heard that before
i walked off and went in my room and made a bubble bath then i got undressed and laid in it with my eyes closed about 10 minutes later i feel feet touching mine so i flinch then i calm down when i realize it's dejuane
Y: what do you want
i say closing my eyes again
De: y/n i'm sorry
Y: so i've heard before
De: i'm serious i should've never let your parents get in my head and i see that now and i change my mind i don't want to break up, even though i never officially said we were done anyway so you're still my girl, you're just mad at me
Y: yes dejuane i know and all because you come and talk to me doesn't mean i'm not mad at you anymore
De: i can make it up to you
Y: and how's that
dejuanes grabs my hand and sits me on his lap 👀 (i don't mean his regular lap lol) then once we finished we dry off then lay in bed and go to sleep

loving the toxicness 🤩