Why am I never enough??

part 165

once we woke up we got ready for the day then we walked out the room talking to the group and mattia was apologizing for starting stuff while i just laughed then we all ate breakfast together and i messed with kobe's toes sticking out his cast then luis and his friend group came over for a little which surprised all of us because we haven't talked to them in so long then they left and alejandro, kobe and kairi went to the store while me and the others stayed at the house sitting down and talking then tatyana came over and she just walked inside and sat next to me while i looked at her and she just stared at me until she starting talking

Tatyana: so what's up with you and kobe
Y: we're together
Tatyana: when did this happen
Y: about a month why??
Tatyana: so what are your plans with him
Y: why do you care i haven't seen you in nearly a year so why are you all up in my business
Tatyana: because knowing you this is probably just a way for you to get kobe closer to yourself so he doesn't come around me
Y: sis i forgot about you and i'm kobe because i want something with him not because i'm worried about baby you are the least of my worries
Tatyana: don't lie y/n because we all know kobe still wants me
Melissa: why are you coming in here and starting shit
Jale: for real though you just can't stand that they are happy together
Tatyana: can't be too happy if kobe came to my house last night complaining about their relationship
Y: you really think i'm going to believe that then you're dumber than i thought
Tatyana: i have cameras at my house so i can send you the footage and i can show you the messages right now
Y: i'm not believing shit you say tatyana so shut up
Tatyana: well since you don't want to see then i'll show the others

with 1739261939372927 thoughts rambling through my head tatyana shows the other the "messages" and they don't say anything they just look at each other then when i was about to look for myself angel snatched the phone saying the messages were fake and she was in tatyanas face yelling at her telling her to get out and take the fake messages with her then once she left out i asked them what the messages said and they just kept telling me that they were fake and you could tell so i just pushed the thought in back of my head and we continued watching movies while they whispered every now and then but after a while they were quite then kobe came back with the boys so i gave him a kiss then he sat next to me while i laid my head on his lap and he played with my hair while talking to me then i grabbed his phone going on his tiktok and his instagram and snapchat taking pictures and videos of us then he got a message but before i pressed it he grabbed his phone so i just shrugged it off and watched the movie until someone knocked on the door so i opened it and it was dejuane with the others so i guessed the kids were with his mom

Y: what y'all doing here
Cherry: we just wanted to come and say hi
Y: oh alright come in

they came in and i went and laid back on kobe's lap but after a while he went to the bathroom so i leaned my head on dejuanes shoulder and he gave me his phone so i just scrolled through random crap then he got a message so i told him and he told me to read it out loud so once i did he told me what to respond with so i sent it then i continued going on random apps and seeing what each one does then i was done so i went through his camera roll and i saw a picture that we took years ago

Y: you still have this it's so old
Dejuane: it's my favorite picture
Y: i forgot about that day
Dejuane: it's the picture we took a week before i proposed
Y: it feels so long ago
Dejuane: it was a year and a half ago
Y: i feel old
Dejuane: you are bitch
Y: first off i'm only 20 you on the other hand
Dejuane: i'm 21 sweetheart and watch you're mouth before you get arrested for underage drinking
Y: chile i do what i want fuck the law
Dejuane: you say that now until they arrest your dumb ass
Y: and you'll bail me out
Dejuane: ehh depends on how i'm feeling
Y: ok that's a bet
Dejuane: i'm kidding
Y: sure you are

i keep joking with dejuane until kobe comes out the bathroom finally but even then he's just on his phone so i go back to talking to dejuane then he grabbed my hand and started pulling on my fingers and i just laughed until the others got ready so i playfully pushed dejuane and laughed and he flicked me off and smiled then they walked out the door and i went and sat back on the couch

Alejandro: so are you and dejuane good again
Y: yea we are
Kobe: too good
Y: bro stop with the jealousy it's annoying
Kobe: oh excuse me i'm not aloud to be jealous when my girl is all over someone else
Y: i'm not doing this tonight
Kobe: then don't
Y: anyways yea we're good
Alejandro: awe ok then
Jale: do you think he still wants you
Y: i don't know but i just see him as a best friend
Jale: oh i sense some chemistry there
Y: jale shut up no and you saying that right now is the dumbest fucking idea ever
Jale: sorry

after that i just put in my airpods listening to music then dejuane sends me the photo and i smile at it then i save it to my camera roll and make it my home screen because kobe was my lock screen then i went upstairs while everyone else stayed downstairs and i went to sleep

update my food still isn't here 😔