Why am I never enough??

part 188

today was a big day because it was the day before azlynn started kindergarten so y/n woke her up and got her dressed and they went to the mall while dejuane watched dj but while they were at the mall just walking around and taking azlynn into stores they walked up to the one where y/n and corey played in and she just stood there with her eyes starting to water and a tear fell down hitting the ground as the tears kept flowing she felt azlynn gently squeeze her hand so she wiped her tears and told azlynn she was ok and they continued walking into stores and buying azlynn clothes and shoes and school supplies after they were done they went to the food court sitting down and eating and y/n was talking to azlynn about if she was excited

Y: you're growing up so fast
Azlynn: i know mama but it'll be ok
Y: yes it will i'm so happy i get to see you turn into the amazing woman you are becoming
Azlynn: thank you mama but what if i don't make any friends tomorrow
Y: give it time anyone would be lucky to have you as a friend and you have a pretty cool family that only comes once in a lifetime
Azlynn: i'll keep that in mind but maybe i should become friends with them before i bring them to the house
Y: why's that
Azlynn: because they might leave when they hang out with y'all
Y: whatever hater we're cool
Azlynn: yea but maybe too cool
Y: you're just a nerd now come on we have to get you ready for tomorrow
Azlynn: ok

they got up throwing away their trash and picking the bags back up and heading out the mall to the car once they got everything in and got inside the car they drove home listening to music while y/n laughed at azlynn who was singing her little heart out but once they got to the house they got all the bags out and went to the room laying them down on the ground and picking out an outfit for her to wear tomorrow when dj ran in with kj and blessing and blessing had a bunch of clothes with her

Y: are you ready for kindergarten blessing
Blessing: i'm nervous but i'll be with azlynn right
Y: i can ask the counselor to put y'all in the same classes
Azlynn: yay
Dj: i wanna go to kindergarten
Y: baby you're only 4 you can't go yet
Dj: why does sissy and blessing get to go
Y: because they are 5
Kj: this isn't fair
Y: life isn't fair bud
Kobe: tatyana won't be able to make it today or be here for the next week
Y: why
Kobe: she's out for business in texas
Y: ok that's fine
Kobe: so do you think you can take the kids to school tomorrow
Y: sure i have to drop azlynn and dj off anyway
Kobe: thank you y/n
Y: no problem

once the girls finally decided what they wanted to wear tomorrow y/n moved on to the boys and once they picked y/n took the girls into the bathroom while the boys watched tv and she bathed them and dressed them for bed then sat them on the counter while they told her what hairstyle they wanted as for azlynn she wanted two pig tails with her edges done but blessing wanted two french braids going to the back with some of her curls sticking out so while y/n went to go get the hair stuff the girls sat on the counter talking once she got the stuff the boys said they were hungry so she jogged downstairs and grabbed them snacks as she gave it to them she went into the bathroom doing blessings hair first then azlynn and once she finished she watched them brush their teeth then she put a durag and a satin bonnet on their hair so they don't mess it up well she didn't put a durag on azlynn since she had pig tails instead she wrapped the flat part and she braided the hair so it wouldn't frizz up then she put the bonnet on and while she picked them up putting them back on the ground she watched as they ran to the bed jumping up and down and she shook her head knowing she would probably have to redo it then kairi walked in walking into the bathroom seeing y/n put up the hair supplies

Kairi: you should've waited until tomorrow
Y: i see that now but i didn't know if i would have time tomorrow
Kairi: you're going to have to make time
Y: i don't want to drop them off looking like a tired zombie i have to meet their teachers
Kairi: well go to sleep right now and set an alarm then by the time you wake up you'll be energized enough to get them ready
Y: who'll watch them while i'm sleeping
Kairi: y/n they have a dad
Y: kairi
Kairi: ok i get your point well i'll watch them
Y: you always watch them it's not fair
Kairi: i got it y/n
Y: no kairi i'll be fine if i can get them to bed early enough tonight then i'll be able to sleep early
Kairi: if you say so
Y: i do now come downstairs with me so i can pack their lunches
Kairi: coming

y/n finished putting everything up then she gave kj the remote and told them to watch tv until she got back so while they got under the covers laying down watching cartoons y/n went downstairs with kairi going into the kitchen and making their lunch boxes for tomorrow she gave them a lunchable, fruit, chips, wipes so they can clean themselves after and she wrote an individual note for all of them then she zipped them up and put them in the refrigerator while kairi went back upstairs laying their outfits next to their shoes and putting their supplies in their backpacks then he turned the light off while they slept and a couple hours later y/n went in there with them and she set an alarm on her phone and laid next to them going to sleep and dreaming about corey

i'm back btw i have a 5 page essay and i'm on page 1 🥲🔫