Why am I never enough??

part 174

after y/n got herself to calm down she stayed glued to kairi just hugging him and once they pulled away kairi just looked at y/n knowing how upset she was about the situation and he cupped her face giving her a pep talk then walking out and going into the room with gabby even though kairi gave y/n some encouragement to not give up y/n knew she didn't want to or feel like trying and going through another heart break so she already established with herself that she was done with love so she got up getting in the shower again just sitting down and letting the water hit her face as tears collided with them it felt like hours until she was done and once she got out she grabbed an oversized hoodie she bought and some shorts with her hair in a messy bun and her face red with some house shoes and she walked downstairs seeing dejuane and lucianna with the kids and lucianna looked at her smiling she liked to see y/n down because it made her feel like she was winning but y/n just ignored both of them not even looking at them a second time and she sat on the ground with the kids not really speaking to anyone

Derek: what's wrong y/n
Kairi: she doesn't feel like talking
Mattia: well we know who does know
Mike: so what's wrong with her kairi
Kairi: i'll tell y'all later
Mattia: ok we can wait
Vallyk: i'm curious ash
Melissa: let's not act like we don't know why
Kairi: actually you don't you have no idea why melissa so shut the fuck up
Derek: damn kairi you good
Kairi: i'm sorry i'm fine i just don't like seeing her like this but i'll be ok
Gabby: wanna cuddle kai
Kairi: no unless it's something that'll help y/n then it can wait
Gabby: she'll be fine kai let's go
Kairi: no gabby not right now

kairi and gabby kept talking until kairi got up and picked up dj and azlynn and helped y/n up then he gave dejuane a look and they walked upstairs going in her room and sitting on her bed just talking to her and occasionally rubbing her back as she cried after a few hours kairi got tired and gave y/n him a hug and he walked out then she sat there zoned out again but not crying just thinking then kobe came in and she just slowly turned her head looking at him

Kobe: i know you might not talk especially to me but kairi told us what happened and i can't say much since i did the same but i want you to know that you are never the reason some people just aren't good enough for you and i was one of them i used your kindness against you and i'm so sorry but you shouldn't give up on love everyone has someone out there that was made especially for them whether  you see that now or not but i'm sorry i didn't give you what you deserved but i'm glad you forgave me and let me back in your life and i'll do whatever i can to earn your trust back because i love you
Y: i love you too

when y/n spoke her voice cracked and kobe just looked at her and then went to her wrapping her in a hug after a while he left out leaving y/n in her thoughts once again she thought about how maybe love wasn't for her and maybe everyone was only saying it was because they didn't want her to be alone and they feel bad for her but she wasn't sure if she was ready to open herself and let someone else in when all it did was end up with her heartbroken and alone as she was thinking she put on shoes and went outside with her phone and her airpods and turned on her music listening to songs while jogging through the neighborhood she was mainly jogging around to try and find places she could go where she could just sit and be by herself and after what felt like forever she found a park where if you sat on the top slide you could see a beautiful lake with the bluest water she's ever seen and you could see the moon and the stars so she pulled out her phone marking the spot in her notes and she jogged back home laying down on her bed and turning on her tv watching youtube until she fell asleep

short chapter because i'm dying 😖