Why am I never enough??

part 91

as i was on my phone just responding to supporters and watching edits someone came in my room and i turn my head and see dejuane standing in my doorway

Y: could've sworn i told you not to come
Dejuane: do it look i give a fuck cause i don't
Y: shouldn't you be with davine
Dejuane: she's visiting her parents this week
Y: that's why you're here with me
Dejuane: sure is bitch
Y: boy i break you fucking neck stop playing with me
Dejuane: chile anyways what we watching
Y: that's what i thought and IM watching The Lorax
Dejuane: childish
Y: bitch you in my room
Dejuane: did i ask
Y: did i ask if you asked tf anyways stay here i'll be right back

i go into jared's room and throw on one of his hoodies because i was cold then i limp my way back to my room and plop on bed and hoist my leg back up

Dejuane: who's hoodie is that
Y: jared's
Dejuane: bitch take it off before you get it musty
Y: um chile i've never been musty but you on the other hand
Dejuane: only time i've been musty is after football games or practices
Y: cap
Dejuane: i'm not justin
Y: don't do him like that

me and dejuane talk for a few more hours then the group comes back home and they all come in my room

Jaden: oh what's up dejuane
Lexi: why are you here
Dejuane: y/n missed me
Y: bitch stop lying i posted a photo saying "whoever sees this first has to come and spend the night with me" and next thing i know this mother fucker was standing in my doorway
Larray: hahaha
Y: where y'all go
Manolo: to some club down the street
Smitty: there were so many baddies
Devyn: and yet you couldn't get one
Kay: don't do smitty like that
Y: did she lie tho
Donn: hell nah he got rejected twice
Diego: by two different girls
Tatyanah: told y'all he ugly
Y: true y'all did tell me
Smitty: fuck y'all
Dixie: when
Y: aht aht no ma'am
Smitty: ha thought i was ugly tho
Devyn: you are dixie jus doesn't have taste
Sora: they on your ass
Jared: ong they are
HaiHai: that gotta hurt
Josh: ugly mf
Smitty: um first fuck you guys and second we must all be ugly because we all single
Kobe: good point
Y: um speak for yourselves i could be taken if i wanted to
Jared: fr tho
Ballo: do i smell a ship
Nia: she sure do got his hoodie on
Y: um chile anyways what do y'all want
Larray: we came to check on you
Y: oh well when y'all leave out take dejuane with you
Monroe: dejuane you can sleep in my room
Dejuane: it's fine i'll sleep on y/ns floor
Kobe: damn ain't this your 5th time getting rejected
Ballo: didn't we tell you you're making us feel bad for you at this point
Manolo: oh which of y'all are going to playlist
Y: it's me, dejuane, diego, jared, sora, kobe, lexi, sadly monroe, devyn and i'm pretty sure some people in my old friend group like derek and them are going also
Sora: when is playlist
Y: in a week or two i believe
Kobe: i'm gonna pack early then before i forget
Jared: ong

everyone leaves out my room while everyone else packs early for playlist then while dejuane makes a pallet on the floor i start packing some clothes and i make sure to pack more outfits than i'll need just in case and i make sure i have outfits to match kobe and derek and also jared then once i finish i zip up my suitcases and bags and put them in a corner of my room along with my neck pillow and toiletries like my toothbrush, toothpaste, etc then i lay down on my bed and put on Princess and the frog until i go to sleep with jared's hoodie, and some short nike shorts with my hair in a messy loose bun but once i wake up i go to jared's room and i see him still packing so i help him pack then we sit on the bed talking while he played the game and i sit beside him with my legs in his lap watching then he massages my leg as i scroll through instagram and tiktok then i lean back so my back is on the bed and i start humming songs then i fall back alseep and jared goes to sleep right beside me

how many chapters can there be before you have to start another book?? because if i run out of chapters i can put then the part 2 will be either a sequel or a regular book 2