Why am I never enough??

part 71

once we woke up i was exhausted for some reason but i got up and woke the kids up and i just got them dressed then gave me some cup cereal and once they finished i slapped dejuane awake then individually went to everyone's room to get them up, once i was finally done it was 7:00am and the flight left at 8:30 so we had to hurry to the airport so once we got our luggage in the car we took off to the airport, on our way i went to sleep then once i woke up we were there so we go our stuff out the van and brought it to be checked then we made sure our passports were good then once we finished it's was 7:45 so we were all sitting down and dejuane was beside me and azlynn was in my lap and the next thing i know i open my eyes and the flight attendant is calling for our flight, we boarded and i felt a little better so i stayed up this time talking to the kids then i was talking to dejuane showing him a few cake ideas then after a while we landed and got our bags then we headed to the hotel

^^the hotel

i made sure to pick a hotel that i thought the kids would find pretty and nice so once we got there while i got us registered in our room dejuane and andre took the kids to look at the ponds and then once i was finished i went to the pond and handed dejuane and all the boys keys to the room they'll be in then i gave dejuane a kiss

Y: see you in 4 days
Dejuane: i'm gonna miss you
Y: you'll be fine just have fun

then i looked at all the boys

Y: but not too much fun cause you know justin and andre some hoes
Dejuane: i won't
Y: mmhmm

i hugged dejuane then he squeezed me and kept giving me pecks so then i pulled away

Y: stop before you make me miss you
Dejuane: bruh i don't want to do this
Y: bye dejuane i love you
Dejuane: i love you more
Y: alright come on kids i have to take y'all to dejuanes mom room so she can watch y'all for these next few days
Azlynn: yay grandma

i walked with all the girls to dejuanes mom room then i gave her all the kids bags then i hugged them one by one and then we left to go to our room, the hotel room was huge so everyone got their own room and btw the girls with me are cherry, ansley, ayaina, hailey, and cynthia (she was already in hawaii so she basically invited herself) but once we put our stuff in our room and i put my wedding dress in the closet we all went into the living room and sat on the couch

Y: i miss dejuane and the kids
Ansley: i miss mike
Cherry: girl i miss artis
Cynthia: omg i miss mattia
Ayaina: bruh i miss kobe
Hailey: and i miss derek
Y: wth are we gonna do
Ansley: eat because we miss them
Y: sis i still have a wedding dress i have to fit into
Ansley: oh yea forgot my bad
Cherry: we can eat HEALTHY stuff because we miss them
Y: omg let's just swim
Cherry: fine
Y: then we can do that
Ansley: yessir
Y: but we're exercising after
Hailey: wait why
Y: y'all still have to fit into bridesmaid dresses besides cynthia....no offense
Cynthia: nun taken
Ayaina: fine just come on
Y: ok ok

we got dressed in our bathing suits and went to the pool which was really pretty

^^the pool

and while they swam i sat my black ass in one of the lawn chairs mainly talking to hailey since she's the one that helped me pick a lot of my stuff so i asked her to pick between the cakes me and dejuane had narrowed it down to and once she picked the one she liked most i went ahead and ordered it then i checked to see if i had everything together, my wedding was an important day and it would've meant a lot if my mom and dad were here but not everything goes as planned and when something like that happens you have to learn to make the best out of any situation then as i was thinking i realized i didn't have anyone to walk me down the aisle since that part was supposed to be done by my dad so i threw on a robe told the girls where i was going then put on my flip flops and started walking to dejuanes mom room to ask his dad, it took me about 10 minutes to get there and once i did i knocked on the door then kairi opened it and he looked at me confused and i returned the same face then i looked past him and saw dejuane so i ran to him and hugged him like i haven't seen him in months

Y: I MISS YOU
Dejuane: I MISS YOU TOO
Kobe: where's the other girls
Y: they didn't come with me
Mike: wait then why are you here
Y: oh i have a question to ask dejuanes dad, where is he
Dejuane: in the kitchen
Y: ok i'll brb

after that i started walking to the kitchen and when i go in i see dejuanes dad talking to dj

Y: um hey Mr.Thomas i have a question
D/d: you can call me father in law
Y: oh ok well father in law, i have a question
Finlaw: what's up
Y: well i don't have anyone to walk me down the aisle so i was wondering if you could do it instead
Finlaw: ofc id be honored you're apart of this family and anything you need i'll be right here even if it's me having to deal with that little shit in there
Y: he is a little shit
Finlaw: yes he is

we started laughing and talking some more then i go back into the living room with the guys and i see all the girls are here now so then i sit back with dejuane and talk to them for a few hours

just before i go to school 😖