Why am I never enough??

part 40

me and dejuane woke up at the same time, it was 6:30am when we woke up, we showered, wash our hair then brushed our teeth and just sat on the bed our towels on talking then dejuane "talks" to the baby again then after a while i wanted to go swimming so i put on bikini bottoms but put on a regular bra and sat by the edge of the pool with my feet in the pool i got in and just stood there inside of it, i stayed by myself then got out of the water and sat on the edge just rubbing my stomach then i saw it move
Y: DEJUANE
dejuane comes running to me which is funny
De: WHAT ARE YOU OK
Y: i'm fine but come here
i grab dejuanes hand and put it on my stomach and wait for the baby to move
De: omfg i felt that!!!
Y: ikr it just happened
dejuane gives me a hug then we sit down waiting for it to happen again and once it does we sit and talk about things that are baby related then the baby kicks the shit out of me
Y: OW FUCK
De: what's wrong!!
Y: she kicked me
De: hahaha as she should
Y: fr help me i'm in pain
De: fine
dejuane picks me up and carries me to the room and he goes and gets some more stuff for the baby and i also thought about a name then i came up with the perfect one

~6 months later~
me and dejuane are doing great we're just sitting in the living room with everyone
Y: my stomach hurts
M: maybe because you're big
Y: shut the fuck up mike, i mean it actually hurts, you know what fuck it i'm gonna go to the bathroom
C: to shit??
Y: idk
i get up and once i do a liquid runs down my leg and my eyes widen as i look at dejuane and his do the same, then i feel a sharp pain so i hold my stomach and sit back down panting
Ma: OMG I THINK HER WATER BROKE
A: OH FUCK CALL AN AMBULANCE OR SHIT GET THE CAR READY
i sat on the couch with dejuane holding my hand and putting a cold towel on my head while everyone else zips through the house getting the baby bag and some clothes for me and dejuane then once everyone is finished dejuane carries me to the car and gets in the driver seat and zooming off, once we get there they instantly put me in a room then make me get naked and put on a robe, i was in so much pain i just got naked in front of everyone then i put the robe on and plopped down then they hoisted my legs on these things and i stayed like that all day just talking to dejuane like everything was normal but the pain never left, i got two hours of sleep then i woke up dejuane and pressed the emergency button because the pain got worse then the doctor and a nurse came in
Doc: OMG THE HEAD IS COMING OUT
Y: WAIT WHAT IM NOT READY
Doc: you have no choice now sorry dear
Y: OMG OMG
De: baby it's ok i'm right here
Y: NO ITS NOT OK
De: yes it is, hey just look at me the whole time, ok?
Y: ok ok
Doc: alright push in 1.2.3
after everything is finished i pushed out a healthy baby girl then dejuane cut the bibical cord then once they put my legs down they were extremely sore and then they took my baby to be cleaned and put a diaper on then once they finished they brought her back to me
Doc: so what's her name
Y: her name is Azlynn
Doc: omg that's a pretty name
Y: thank you
Doc: alright i'll be back, you are the father right
De: haha well i sure hope nah i'm just playing yes i am
Doc: ok i'll be back with a birth certificate for y'all to sign
De: ok thank you
i was sitting down holding her just looking at how pretty she was and i never wanted to let go but then dejuane asked to hold her so i gave her to him then everyone else came in and they all got a chance to hold her but when Tatyana held her she started crying
Y: well damn she don't like you either haha
i take Azlynn from her and lay her on my chest and as soon as i laid her down she went to sleep so i went to sleep also, when i woke up Azlynn wasn't on my chest so i started panicking
Y: omg where's my baby!!!
De: y/n it's ok she's right beside you
i look beside me and see they put her in this little baby bed
Y: oh thank God
De: yes she's fine and as beautiful as her mother
Y: i know right
dejuane gets up and starts playing with my hair
De: you did it babe all by yourself
Y: yes i pushed her out by myself but you were right by my side throughout the whole pregnancy and i love you for that
De: i love you too
Y: but De can you pass me back my baby
De: OUR* baby and sure
Y: yea sure pass me our baby
he gave me Azlynn and she was just so adorable that i never wanted to let go, she made me so happy and i couldn't wait to show her the world and spoil her, i knew at this moment my life was complete unless i have more kids then my life would be full, i lay her back on my chest the she breathes to match my breathing pattern and while she does i rub her back and play with her little curls and talk to dejuane then everyone comes back in the room
Ma: not that it's important but you do know we all saw you naked right
Y: i'm sorry
i say turning my head towards dejuane
De: it's fine you weren't thinking due to all the pain you were in
Y: oh ok
kobe comes up to me and rubs Azlynn back with me
Y: um i hope those hands are clean
K: hell no
i slap kobe's hand off my baby
Y: um no get away from my baby
De: our baby
Y: but i'm not speaking in the context where you need to be included
Ta: you should still say it
Y: girl i will put OUR baby down and drag you thru these hallways
Kai: alright nun of that y-
before he could say anything i was out like a light for about 20 minutes until i felt my baby get lifted up so i jumped up
Kai: dang y/n chill i'm just gonna hold her
Y: oh i'm sorry kai
i lay back down and fall asleep, since it was also dejuanes baby i knew he wouldn't let anything happen to her

idk but i think Azlynn is a really pretty name (Az-lin)