life updates for anyone who cares

married life

Its about to be a month tomorrow since I've been married and it feels strange and at the same time like I've known him forever. He knows me quite well, sometimes its scary and I retreat but I think we both handling the pressures of married life well. Today I made banana and walnut bread but we did not have the loaf pan so I had to put it in the circle.. so I guess we can call it a "cake" and I cleaned the cupboards and want to organize the kitchen side tomorrow because tbh im very tired even though i was gonna do it today but my husband is about to come and i want to save some energy for him and i have to call mama and baba today too so i dont want to tire myself out.

so married life is definitely a 10/10 Alhamdulilah but it can become about a 6/10 on a bad day.. which is not too bad if you ask me. but anyway, i think my marriage has been very hard on my mum specifically. she sent me photos of her eyelids getting very saggy and loose and i just felt sad bc that wasnt there before and it just happened within the last month and i just became very cautious bc its up to me to keep up with my parents. they are my responsibility and i need to take care of them. im gonna stay back on thursday after my lifeline shift and im gonna tell my husband that hes gonna have to let me stay back a little bit bc mum likes to act like shes okay but ik that shes not.

so even though its hard to keep up with everyone: mum in law, my siblings, my husband, my parents and others who are inviting us to dawaats with all their love.

my husband is kinda boring and doesnt like going out bc he thinks he wont enjoy it but then he does. im glad hes getting comfortable around my family.. truth is hes confused about who he is.. so it becomes easier t forgive him when he says he doesnt want to go somewhere.

tbh when i started this entry i thought i'd have a lot to say but im so tired wow.

i just realised i need to clean my husband's dead skin off his feet tonight so i really gotta save energy.

sex is great btw definitely a 100/10... lets pray it stays that way AMEEEN

btwwwww rishta #1 came yesterday to give some honey to us and rishta #2 (aka as my husband opened the door and it was  hella awkward bc rishta#1 is like "so hows mum...dad.." and then awkwardly pauses. and then my husband comes and tells me "guess who that was... ?*rishta #1's name*" and i tried to recognise his voice but he sounded different so i say "really? he sounded different" and then my husband says "dont worry about how he sounds... worry about how i sound" and then we had amazing sex

he called me a nymphomaniac after.... ahhhhh love that. im not ashamed